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 Posted: Mon Apr 09, 2007 1:46 pm
EDIT (8.2.07). I go by Sabi, and I am 19, living in the southern U.S. I am physically female and mentally androgynous and for lack of a better label am gay [I like girls]. I am currently engaged to the love of my life, in fact. Learning is my passion so I'm a bit of a school nerd. I especially enjoy analyzing people (psychology) and then using that to help them through their problems. I love learning as many languages as my little brain will permit (I am only fluent in Finnish [speaking] and English [speaking and writing] right now, but hope to learn German, Spanish, and Japanese amongst others).
I do quite a bit of art, and lately I've been especially doing anime-style stuff-- you can see it in the art forum. I'm so obsessed with DDR, I've just finally bought a metal pad (almost like in the arcade!). I obsess over nutrition and have aquired at least some kind of useful knowledge over the subject, although, applying it to life is a bit more difficult. As far as people go, I love getting to know everyone and learning about them. I do tend to write a lot, though, to be sure that I am clear, so I appoligize if my thread here gets lengthy. I'm currently attending a University in the U.S. and getting my bachelor's in Molecular and Cell Biology, with minors in Genetics and Chemistry.
I suppose the most positive aspect of my personality is that I am patient and absolutely devoted/loyal to those I care about.. My worst flaw is probably that I am unable to understand what is my fault and what isn't.. so I'm told I apologize too much (in that regard, I'd appreciate knowing if I annoy anyone or do say something bad.. I probably won't get it unless just told) or that I am unsympathetic to helplessness.
Um. Yeah. If there's anything else, I'm sure you'll get it as I post.
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Posted: Mon Apr 09, 2007 2:18 pm
Oh, you need a hug. *HUG*
I can understand where you're coming from about the weight issue, I'm shorter than you and about the same. I'm not really sure what else to add, but I hope that getting it out has helped you. ^^
*more hugs*
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Posted: Tue Apr 10, 2007 2:30 am
I weighed myself this morning finally.. and I am 148. lol. xD Ooops. But when I think about it.. that means I've just lost about 6-7lbs in 3 months, so that really is not excessive. ><; It's just in my mind that everything is screwed up. I think I'm doing a decent job of not letting it affect my life too practically (like..starving myself).
^^ Thanks for hugs. -hugz back-. They make everything better. 3nodding
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Posted: Tue Apr 10, 2007 8:46 pm
Yay for hugs, glad they helped. ^^
Oh, and you're right about the weight loss. 2 lbs per week is healthy, so you're definitely okay. *more hugs, just because*
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Posted: Tue Apr 10, 2007 9:46 pm
*Huggles* I know how the whole weight issue thing feels...I'm, like, wayy overweight. And I'v also had that having to force yourself eat thing
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Posted: Wed Apr 11, 2007 3:09 pm
Thanks Angel and Serpent. <3
So.. school was fun. I had the most AMAZING conversation with EN (initials of the guy) during 4th block since I had to stay after school. We got all into Science vs. Spirituality vs. Religion. It was very tiring, though, at the same time, because it REALLY made me think. I'm starting to think I will make that subject my minor.. or maybe double minor with that (I don't know if they call it religious studies or philosphy or what?) and Psychology. Essentially these are intertwined since the three mentioned subjects are the basis of individuals' concept of Reality, which definitely affects psychology. lol, anyhoo.. I'm getting way too phylosophical again..
I have to take two tests tomorrow.. My Econ and Govt tests. -_-; Meh. So I have tons of hw to do tonight..
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Back on food, I guess.... The saddest part, I think of that whole situation is that I only worry a very little bit about not wanting food.... In fact, I really enjoy hating food. o_o; I mean, if I stuggle for 17 years trying to not eat as much and suddenly I can't..? Sure. I'll do that. I mean, logically, that is still an extreme and life should be balanced.. but it hard to make myself dislike losing weight, ne?
Today I definitely ate too much and unhealthily.. so I know I'll end up playing DDR for at least 3 hours to make up for it. I love DDR.. but that feels weird. I'm too tired to try to explain that, though.
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Anyhoo, since I've been in such a thinking mood lately, I think I'd like to ask everyone's opinion on something. Do you believe in fate? As in-- everything is predestined to occur before you are even born. And if so, do you believe in free will? And then if you believe in both, how do they not conflict? Miki and I have been debating on this, and I'm curious for others' opinions.
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Posted: Fri Apr 13, 2007 11:30 pm
Ooooh, debate time! Btw, good luck with the psychology major, what career are you thinking of? My cousin just finished her degree. smile
Hm, I'd say I believe in free will more than fate. Free will and coincidence, for several reasons: Because it would take a hell of a lot of energy to plan out everyone's lives, and for what purpose? Why bother? What is the benefit? Nature does not do anything without a reason, even if we humans have trouble understanding it. Now, there are people who will say that God is in control over our lives, so therefore, fate exists. Again, I ask why would God bother? It's stated in scripture that God gave humans free will, which is what caused the Eden fiasco. wink
A more convincing argument is that chance prevails, and therefore, free will. Each person decides to do something, and in turn, affects other people with that decision. Essentially, this - and outside circumstances that you cannot possible control - is what creates chance.
Outside circumstances control a star's size, based on the amount of space debris that surrounds it, which came from former stars whose dying explosion scattered their remains. The strength of your throw, the angle of your hand, the surface the die lands on, and the very die itself will determine if you can roll straight sixs, or come up with snake eyes. Your parents are the ones who chose (or maybe not, perhaps circumstances outside their control led to your birth) when and where you were born. This affects the people you meet and the events you experience. But nature and chance aren't the only factors. How a person reacts to their circumstances determines their personality and how they will live their life. You can choose to let your past rule your future actions, or you can choose to accept what has happened and move on. Each person makes their own choice, and so lives a different future than the next person.
Dunno if there's anything left in my brain after that post. sweatdrop
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Posted: Sat Apr 14, 2007 12:20 pm
Hah, wow. You must have taken waaay too long thinking all that out. o_o I wish everyone cared as much as you. xP Thanks. ^^ That would make an interesting thread... but perhaps some people would get angry with it..
Oh well. ANYHOO. Friday was great fun. Got to go to a mental hospital for my psychology club.. most of it was a tour of the building but at the end we actually got to interview a Chronic Refractured Schitzophrenic, and while it was sad to see anyone in such a disoriented state, it was absolutely fascinating. blaugh
Since I was out with a group the whole day.. I.. didn't really eat. o_o So when I got home I was completely exhausted from the combo of lack of food and walking around the hospital complex all day, so I took a four hour nap. Whenever I finally got up, I actually had some food (but weirdly found I was too full to eat a lot?) and then got online expecting to spend a fun-filled night talking with Miki and Angel.
I think close to 1am, or so, though, Miki's comp spazzed and kicked her off of everything.. So at 3am, I just finally went to bed. Angel stayed up with me until then. OH, and Angel, you'll be proud of me. I decided not to set my alarm and just let myself sleep so I was out until noon. O_O; xP; That really weird.. but I'm way awake and hyper now. ^^
Uhm. Oh. I updated a TON of stuff on my art thread, so you all should go check it out! :nods:
Anyhoo.. yeah. Hopefully tonight Miki will get to be up with me. <3
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Posted: Sat Apr 14, 2007 2:14 pm
Yesh, I have converted you! Well, maybe not, but at least you slept in once. *very proud of you* ^_^
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Posted: Sun Apr 15, 2007 11:57 am
I got to speak with Miki last night (this morning?) from whatever time during the day until 4:30am this past night... It was sooooo much fun. Very, very good conversation about.. just.. everything. And she promised me I won't ever be like mom. I trust her.. =] And she said I help a lot.. so I'm beyond grateful. Every time I think of all this, I'm at a complete loss for words. At one point, she was playing random music and she put on "Imagine Me & You".. and I totally cried. >.<; Felt like such a loser.. when do I cry? -sigh-. I really want to be over there.....
Sorry if that doesn't make sense to anyone. ><; Uh.. in other news, I finished anther pic of Miki & I.. I gave her a wolf RP and it's SO CUTE!! ^^ I'm actually REALLY proud of this pic, so you guys should all check it out in the art section.. It's called "Puppy Love". =D
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Posted: Wed Apr 18, 2007 7:43 am
Oh my goodness. xD Yesterday Bunny, Josiah, Quinh, and I all went to this Swing dancing place! From 8-9pm, they taught us a certain dance.. and then from 9-midnight everyone just got to dance (but we left at 10:30). There were SO many kinds of people there.. it was absolutely fascinating. -^^- It was not formal, but it was rather "traditional" since swing started in the 50'sish, so for the most part only guys danced with girls and guys always asked the girls.
After the initial lesson (which was SO hard to me!? gonk gah, I cannot dance!?) we could stay until midnight dancing.. and I got asked by probably half the guys there to dance (they kind of rotated partners every song or so). I had no idea what I was doing, but all of them, especially the older ones, were really nice about helping me and explaining stuff to me. ^^ The only awkward part was figuring out where to look... if I looked at their face, I felt INCREDIBLY awkward and unconfortable, and it sometimes felt like I was so close, we'd kiss. x_x; So mostly, I looked at the floor (since I could concentrate on my feet and how I was "dancing".) and other times, if I looked at them, I'd make sure to talk to them, so I could focus more on the conversation than their face. Anyhoo, we didn't stay until midnight.. we left at 10:30.
And now.. today has been good. I've nearly finished outlining Usagi's character. ^^ And I finished a bunch more flash cards to increase my vocab in spanish..
Anyhoo, it's ueber late, so I'm off to bed. <3
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Posted: Fri Apr 20, 2007 11:08 pm
Hm.. today went well. It was the last day of TAKS testing. I had a government test, the LAST one of this year (until the AP exam).. so that's nice to be done with.
My parents didn't let me go to the Invisible Children demonstration... -sigh- It's so sad that they don't get it. Why should you be so scared of society that you live in a box? I don't know. I hope I never understand the answer to that point of view.. However, the good news is that I'm kind of in charge of much of the advertising to get our Invisible Children community service project known. I've been working on this one poster for hours. It's going to be amazing once I finish, though. ^^ After this one, the others won't take as long. [btw, if you don't know what Invisible Children is, you should REALLY look into it.]
Miki left for a walk hours ago.. so I'm waiting, even though she told me not to. xP I'm so disobedient. But yeah. I guess I'll get back to my posters while I sit patiently. ^^
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Posted: Sat Apr 21, 2007 12:30 am
heart for the Invisible Children.
We did a fundraiser for that at my school too, but the speech team couldn't go to it since we were out of town. crying We did get to watch the movie in speech and drama before that though.
Oooh! I wanna see the poster! Or you could just describe how awesome it is. 3nodding
Tsk tsk, disobedient Sabi, lol.
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Posted: Sat Apr 21, 2007 8:48 pm
Yeah, I will get a picture of the posters I'm making soon. I need to wait until I get a workable camera. O_o (Obviously, I cannot scan posters.. lol).
Oh gosh, today was AWESOME. I haven't done a ton, but I've enjoyed every second of the relaxation. My parents went a few minutes out of town this weekend for my bro's soccer tournament..
At around 5:30pm I started wanting to learn how to conjugate verbs in spanish.. and Miki and I got into some problems since that is more complex grammer than the genders of nouns.. SO since my parents haven't been home, I was terrible and snuck out of the house with the car they left here to go buy myself a book on Spanish verbs (with the money my mom left me for food.. lmao). But hey-- am I so terrible for wanting to learn? Other kids are spending their parents' money on drugs and God knows what and sneaking out to do naughty things. lol. I'm sneaking out to learn and by books. xD
So, when I got to Barnes & Noble I found two AMAZING little books by Barron.. one about Spanish grammer and the other contained 300 or so conjugated verbs. They are only about 4x6in so it makes them very easy to hide/carry with me. ^^ I am actually just now taking a break... I've been studying the grammatics book for about an hour (page 13 out of 200!). Haha.. I'm soooo excited about learning this!!
Anyhoo.. my nerd session is done. sweatdrop
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Posted: Sun Apr 22, 2007 11:26 pm
FrozenIntellect Yeah, I will get a picture of the posters I'm making soon. I need to wait until I get a workable camera. O_o (Obviously, I cannot scan posters.. lol).
Oh gosh, today was AWESOME. I haven't done a ton, but I've enjoyed every second of the relaxation. My parents went a few minutes out of town this weekend for my bro's soccer tournament..
At around 5:30pm I started wanting to learn how to conjugate verbs in spanish.. and Miki and I got into some problems since that is more complex grammer than the genders of nouns.. SO since my parents haven't been home, I was terrible and snuck out of the house with the car they left here to go buy myself a book on Spanish verbs (with the money my mom left me for food.. lmao). But hey-- am I so terrible for wanting to learn? Other kids are spending their parents' money on drugs and God knows what and sneaking out to do naughty things. lol. I'm sneaking out to learn and by books. xD
So, when I got to Barnes & Noble I found two AMAZING little books by Barron.. one about Spanish grammer and the other contained 300 or so conjugated verbs. They are only about 4x6in so it makes them very easy to hide/carry with me. ^^ I am actually just now taking a break... I've been studying the grammatics book for about an hour (page 13 out of 200!). Haha.. I'm soooo excited about learning this!!
Anyhoo.. my nerd session is done. sweatdrop The world needs more people like you. Seriously. heart
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