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 Posted: Tue Apr 10, 2007 1:22 pm
Couldn't think of where else to put this so I'll post it here, if it's in the wrong place feel free to delete.
Okay, yesterday was my 'Sweet Sixteen'.
It completely sucked. I didn't get ANY presents! ((Family doesn't count))
I had rented out a place for my party, but only ONE person came! And since no one was there they had to open the place up again. So, there were a whole bunch of people there I don't know. They were sitting there whispering about me just loud enough so that I could hear. There was no good music.
Just me and my one friend sitting there eating Blueberry Crumble Cake, playing games. (( She beat me at air hockey. ))
I was majorly pmsing and I wound up going into the bathroom just to cry!!
(( Which I have not done since 5th grade.Really, my life kinda sucks but I don't cry. I think it makes me weaker than I am.))
Oh, and since I'm ranting and feeling sorry for my self I'll just put everything.
We're losing our house. They will be forclosing soon. My mom can't work because of health issues, so we have barely any income. it's just me an her. I would love to work to get some money together, but I can't. And i mean physically can't. I have the follow physical health issue (( I wouldn't put mental 'cause that be to long )) : I have Rheumatoid Juvenal Arthritis, Fiber Myalgia, A Genetic Auto Immune Disease, Chronic Fatigue and Pain.
I have to go to Ann Harbor Hospital for 2 and 1/2 weeks for tons of tests. No one to take care of my dog while I'm gone. When we come back we may not have a house.
Oh, right another thing my mother, my sister, and I were all abused by my 'father'. Mostly my mother, she was married to him for 23 years. Then she remarried an a** that beat my brothers. She is now divorced. I still have to see my 'father' even though as a child he abused me physically and sexually.
I had to visit him, and i wound up locked in his bathroom for 3 hours. He was drunk came back to his house while I was visiting and traumatized me. I now have Post Traumatic Stress.
That's all I can stomach to write, right now. there's more but I just can't type it.
I'm sitting here debating whether to post or not. If I do I'll feel weak for throwing my problems out in the open. Not to mention I always have some jerk that says things like 'it's my fault', 'it's my moms fault', 'I'm lying to get attention' or some stuff like that....
Well, I'm going to post it anyway. Feel free to mess with my head some more, I'm used to it. And no, I'm not posting this for attention, or for sympathy. I'm posting it to get it off my proverbial chest.
Do whatever you want with this information.
(( I have not spell-checked or grammar checked. I just wrote it. ))
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Posted: Tue Apr 10, 2007 1:36 pm
Well, no one posts or votes.........
Yea, that does wonders for my self-a-steem. sweatdrop
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Posted: Tue Apr 10, 2007 1:58 pm
Anyone think I should just delete this?
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Posted: Tue Apr 10, 2007 3:03 pm
No one is going to say you are lying. Why would anyone lie about this stuff. And I don't care if you want sympathy I'm going to give it. That really sucks and I'm sorry your birthday was crappy. I can pray for you if you want. Not sure it would make you feel better but if you want I can.
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Posted: Tue Apr 10, 2007 3:06 pm
mikodono No one is going to say you are lying. Why would anyone lie about this stuff. And I don't care if you want sympathy I'm going to give it. That really sucks and I'm sorry your birthday was crappy. I can pray for you if you want. Not sure it would make you feel better but if you want I can. Well, people hate me. sweatdrop I always have people messing with me. I'd appreciate it. 3nodding I have many people praying for me. Though lately I'm beginning to think he isn't there...
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Posted: Tue Apr 10, 2007 3:15 pm
Well, I'm not going to mess with you. And don't give up faith. The people with hardships on Earth will be rewarded in Heaven. Just keep believing. God loves you and will take care of you. It just may seem like He isn't.
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Posted: Tue Apr 10, 2007 3:21 pm
mikodono Well, I'm not going to mess with you. And don't give up faith. The people with hardships on Earth will be rewarded in Heaven. Just keep believing. God loves you and will take care of you. It just may seem like He isn't. I think I need to start going back to church more. It really does seem that he isn't here. All that I wrote isn't even half of it. gonk
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Posted: Tue Apr 10, 2007 3:25 pm
I know the feeling of thinking he isn't there. But he is. Always. You are His child and made in his image. You are special to Him. Don't think that he isn't there and when looking for a church find one with people that will welcome you with open arms. Once you find some people that you know care about you life will seem less sucky. Just don't give up faith and keep going. Life will get better when you least expect it.
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Posted: Tue Apr 10, 2007 3:30 pm
Well, hopefully it'll get better soon. And maybe we can keep our house. gonk
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Posted: Tue Apr 10, 2007 3:31 pm
For your sake, I hope so too. And I will pray for you.
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Posted: Tue Apr 10, 2007 3:33 pm
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Posted: Tue Apr 10, 2007 3:38 pm
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The Extraordinary Lauren Crew
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Posted: Tue Apr 10, 2007 4:04 pm
Is there anyway you can get help through the state or federal gov't? Mediaid possibly? I am sorry that you are in such a terrible situation. I really do hope you feel better and that things turn out for the best.
heart
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Posted: Tue Apr 10, 2007 5:01 pm
The Extraordinary Lauren Is there anyway you can get help through the state or federal gov't? Mediaid possibly? I am sorry that you are in such a terrible situation. I really do hope you feel better and that things turn out for the best.
heart The government sucks. They're the ones taking our house. I'm already on medicare or something like that, but I have to get on disability, or the state won't pay for my meds, even though I have a rare disease. gonk I'm not quite sure what to do. If I could come up with $7,000 I would be able to save our house. But there's no way I can get that. Not to mention we can't really pay for the gas to get down to Ann Harbor. gonk Stupid president making gas prices so f---ing high. crying
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The Extraordinary Lauren Crew
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Posted: Tue Apr 10, 2007 5:30 pm
It's not the president who controls the prices of gas. OPEC controls the prices of oils that are sent out to all of the countries in the world. I'm not saying that our dipolmatic policies help but its ultimatly not his decision.
I still wish for the best
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