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 Posted: Tue Apr 10, 2007 7:50 pm
I'm just me, Vanessa, Small town girl with Small town dreams of a white Picket Fence 2.5 kids and me and my wifey curled up on the porch swing.
Day 1:
Well its April 10th and flippin cold outside, record lows for this time of year in the midwest and threats of Snow for tomorrow evil . Spent most of the day listening to my roomates problems with Taxes and family, no fun in that, then my girlyfriend got off work early and things were cool. Cooked some Chicken for Din Din and then...ate it.
Not looking forward to tomorrow, Not sure If i'm still gonna have a job or not, had to tell my the manager a BIG! UGLY! LIE!, that I just KNOW will come back to bite me in the tail when i'm not lookin, and so yeah, have to go and swim through the guilt at work tomorrow. I am never EVER going on vacation with my mother again, I swear, 21 almost 22 years old and hundereds of miles from home and that woman still manages to control my life...*sigh* Oh well, I really like this Diary/Story thread smile
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Posted: Wed Apr 11, 2007 3:14 pm
Chicken is the BEST food ever. Good job. lol..
Aw.. Hope your work goes okay. Meh, and yeah.. my mom is going to be the same way once I move out. >.>
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Posted: Sun Apr 15, 2007 4:30 am
I'm glad you are liking this dairy idea. It was suggested on our other forum a while back and became a hit so I thought, What the hell.
Sorry to hear you are having troubles. My mother still rules over my mind and I'm nearly 32 and have not seen her in over 5 years, however the leash still feels tight as ever.
Well, jaa for now.
Kat
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Posted: Wed Apr 18, 2007 11:42 am
Kims_Prince I'm glad you are liking this dairy idea. It was suggested on our other forum a while back and became a hit so I thought, What the hell. Sorry to hear you are having troubles. My mother still rules over my mind and I'm nearly 32 and have not seen her in over 5 years, however the leash still feels tight as ever. Well, jaa for now. Kat So there is no escape ? sad
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Posted: Wed Apr 18, 2007 11:49 am
April 18th:
So I haven't been around a whole lot lately due to my crappy 4 year old computer taking a physical memory dump, but!!! Today around noon I got my brand spaken new Dell Inspiron 1501 notebook!!! Big Hooray! It took like a week and a half to get here and cost Krys and I about Nine hundred some dollars but with 60 gigs it should last us about 6 years or so the dell guy said. Either way its awesome and I can't wait to get used to it, my fingers need to adjust to the smaller keyboard still
Still i'm bummed about this school shooting and wish I could find something to make me feel better about it all. Krys is working and having really bad allergy problems for the last few days I'm hoping she's feeling somewhat better by the time I get home tonight. I have the day off tomorrow and hope it might be nice enough to go out fishin
As for tonight, I suppose I'll figure out something to make for dinner and cuddle with my girl, not feeling a hundered percent myself, Oh yeah, and I'm going on a diet : / Shooting for a flat stomach by the end of the Summer, we'll see how that goes biggrin
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Posted: Wed Apr 18, 2007 2:55 pm
Firescares So there is no escape ? sad That all depends. How tight is her leash on you and how psycho she is. You see my mother was abusive as hell and beat me whenever I did something she didn't like, eg. crying. She disowned me when I was only 16 and yet she kept track of everything I would do to tell me how much of a failure I was. I tried to move several times to get away from her and she would stack me to no end. Demanding that any of my relatives tell her if they saw me and to tell me to contact her. She went as far as knocking on every door in the neighbourhood she had been told that I was living in. I took her 60 apartments to finally find me and it scared the hell out of me because all she did was yell at me for having pictures of women kissing on the walls, my own art even. So I finally could not take it any longer and ran to Toronto, a city of 4 million people. I have not heard from her since, however one of my relatives found me and that fact scares the hell out of me so I keep my address a secret from everyone. So if your mother is like that then it will take a loooonnngg time to free yourself from her grasp. I'm slowly getting better, but I need my wife to overpower my mother's programing in my head. Anyways, I hope you enjoy your laptop. We got ours back in October and it set us back a good $1000, but it is a Toshiba with the latest video card and 60 gig harddrive. Kim loves it because it can play video games on it while the other two can't. I love it because I can finally have a multimedia lecture and don't have to borrow someone else's laptop to do it. *grins* Well, have a nice evening. jaa ne Kat
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Posted: Thu May 03, 2007 3:43 am
May...what the hell is today? oh...May 3rd:
Well, I'm feelings somewhat glad my mom isn't as bad as she could be, alot of people have the potential to be pretty sucky....
April flew by somehow, I don't know where I was while that was happening, I guess just huddled in a corner hoping that life wouldn't notice me to much. I think i'm feeling depressed because i'm tired
I'm tired of my girlfriend going to work in the morning spending the day alone and going out to work myself at night an hour before she comes home, then finally finishing work and having an hour and a half to spend with her before she needs to get sleep to do it again the next day. Right now i'm in the early parts of a seven day stretch of this mess...The real kicker is the fact that between the both of us we still can't make enough to get creditors off our back, pay check to pay check life WHICH! would be fine with me, but not when all that makes me happy is being with her and that doesn't happen much...sighs, no solution though, i've toyed with the idea of escaping with her somewhere, don't know where though
I really do like this journal, Its good for 5 am sleepy randomness, All in all I realize I really can't complain, no matter what has happened today or will happen tomorrow I know i've had a better day then millions of people, people who wish they had an apartment to worry about paying bills for, or wishing they had parents to complain about or girlfriends to come home too even if its late. I guess I should stop this mess and snuggle into bed, I just wish I could shake this feeling of needing more, especially when I don't know what this more is I need
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Posted: Fri May 11, 2007 2:20 am
May 11:
Had a real scare a few days ago, a call from a credit card collection agency, American Express to be exact. If I could get just 5 people in the world to say "NO!" to American Express cards forever I would feel like i've done a justice. Well I was 2 months behind and of course they had to throw a fit and send my account into collections and legal bla bla bla
I get a call from a representitive telling me I have until 2 the next day to call or I should have my attourney contact him, MY ATTORNEY!? I can't even spell the word let alone have one or pay one *shrugs* I got it all sorted out, of course they will be squeezing 3 hundred dollars out of me for the next 6 months, The filthy snipers.
3 days till my birthday/Mothersday, Still not looking forward to it, I'm just really over alot of things, computer games, music, money, problems, I'm over it all. Krys is still working all day while I work all night, to add to that mess I'm hoping/dreading picking up a second job and bumping up to 33 hours at my current. 2 hours a day with my girlfriend *sigh* its these kind of little loops of intensely depressing days that really make me sit and wonder "What the hell" I've had a huge build up of frusteration lately, I don't and won't work out so I can't get rid of it that way, and hooray....my mothers coming on saturday to give me a stressfilled birthday bash just the two of us
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Posted: Fri May 11, 2007 9:35 pm
Aw.. that's no fun. confused I'm sorry you and Krys don't see each other more..
Ew @ Mother's day. o_o; Good luck with everything. <3
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Posted: Wed May 16, 2007 10:56 am
May 16th:
Hey Frozen, thanks for your wishes of luck smile Wasn't that bad after all
So Friday I spent then ENTIRE day, my day off, cleaning the apartment it was a nightmare couldn't believe it took so long, I had to litterally scour the whole apartment for anything that might tip my mother to my being a lesbian, or a "partier", at least thats what she thinks someone who has A beer every other week is, So I got that done and low and behold she wasn't here for 10 minutes before she found and voiced her opinion on the 2 things I didn't clean (Cieling fan blades, and air conditioner vent) *sigh* oh well, that was the worst that happened and I thank my lucky stars.
Had a lovely birthday, Drove to a nearby town and got my hair cut and highlighted which needed to be done desperately since it had been a year for either. Then saw the movie "Georgia Rule" starring Lindsey Lohann playing herself lol, if you see it you'll understand. Then just came home got a pizza and went to sleep, mom left then on Sunday and life resumed somewhat normally after another good nights sleep. Ooo, Sunday Night I had an excellent Idea for a story haven't started bringing it to life yet however.
Oh, bigger news, Our last roomate finally moved out she graduated college this Saturday, semi sad because I had lived with her for 4 years and when you spend that much time with someone it just happens that you miss them, but! moving ever forward I moved our bedroom and all our furniture into her old room so now we have twice the space, 2 extra bedrooms sitting empty though if anyone near Macomb Illinois needs a place to stay lol.
Had an interview today for a 2nd job, but I didn't really put much effort into it because i've been bumped up to a regular 33 hour week at my current job with the option of picking up 40 ever other week. I just wasn't sure I wanted to pick up 5 hours from 4 to 9 in the morning and then work a full shift at my other job *shrug* we'll see what they say though. I have the rest of the day off today and tomorrow so i'm not sure what i'll do with myself until Krys gets home, Suppose I should get something to eat then sit around for a while and cap off the day with a bit of vampire wars though i've really not been feeling it lately biggrin
Well, Thats a smidge of an update to my life minus the thrills and chills lol
-F.S.
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Posted: Wed May 16, 2007 12:05 pm
Good th hear things went well for you. I hope that you find a job that allows you to spend more time with your love. I know how it feels to be on opposite swings and I hate it. And Happy Birthday by the way. Sorry I have not been around much to reply to much, been sick...
Well I wish you luck in life and in writing.
jaa ne
Kat
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Posted: Wed May 16, 2007 11:29 pm
Kims_Prince Good th hear things went well for you. I hope that you find a job that allows you to spend more time with your love. I know how it feels to be on opposite swings and I hate it. And Happy Birthday by the way. Sorry I have not been around much to reply to much, been sick... Well I wish you luck in life and in writing. jaa ne Kat Thank you too for the well wishes, Yeah I was surprised things went as smoothly as they did considering the obsticales that are my mother...being sick sucks so bad, sure makes me feel like "why don't I appreciate when I wake up feeling pretty good alot more?!?!" evil Feel Better 3nodding
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Posted: Wed May 16, 2007 11:40 pm
May 17th:
Its 1:27 in the a.m. Not feeling to tired so I thought i'd post in the'old diary again while I watch cheaters. Gonna go pick up the pay check later today, Sucks though cause I've basically got that money spent before I have it in my hand...The trouble i've had with creditors lately is about enough to make me start reaching for the panic button BUT! I will prevail
Didn't get to go fishin today lil Krysy-Poo came home all sorts of hungry so I had to whip up din din then it got dark and can't fish in the dark. Ok so the current thing that kinda ticks me off, I have a good idea to write about, I have this nagging feeling like I should be writing it down, I have NOTHING better to do then get it out all the cards are down but I just can't bring myself to open a Microsoft document and start going, Ooo I wish I hadn't left my typewriter back at my parents.
So were trying to find a new place to live cause rent here is way to expensive for us to stay on month to month, problem is not having money for a downpayment on a place, I had made an appointment to go give the realitor a downpayment (Money I DIDN'T have) so I blew off the apointment, called her a day latter and asked if I could pay half of the ammount which is a little under 200 dollars which I can afford and the realitor says it might be rented out before I had wanted to get in their *pulls hair out* Now ok, generally this isn't a problem but this is a small college town where most of the students have a lease signed and waiting for them to move in at the first of August when schools starts so its becoming harder and harder to find a place to even consider let alone in our price range.......*big big sigh* Don't know what to do if we can't sign this lease friday, I guess just consider moving to a nearby town which leads to the issue of our jobs being here and her not having a car and bla bla bla, seriously why can't things just be simple for more then 5 minutes
Oh well, Not the end of the world, however that just really inspired me to get writing,
Peace!!!
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Posted: Fri May 18, 2007 12:00 pm
May 18th:
So today is a pretty gorgeous day outside probably about 70 degrees sun shining light breeze, gotta love a perfect day.
Woke up at about 10:30 cause Krys was gettin ready for work and so I had to keep peakin out from the cover to see If I needed to start gettin ready to take her yet or not, then I remembered that for some silly a** reason as of today we were not supposed to have any patio furniture on the Balcony so I had to go help bring our table and chairs in, but i'm not considering that matter closed as pointless as it may be I'm going to try and argue an explanation about why having deck furniture on a deck is against the rules.
Big Good news for the day after I Dropped Krystal at work I went with a big old check and finally secured the two of us a place to live starting Aug 1st. Its not as big as the place were in now but at least its affordable, close to work, allows pets and not with the same people were with now! So I sat filling out paper work for that about an hour, still need to come up with another 175 of the security depsoite and 500 for the pet deposite but! I'm feeling hopeful, Paycheck for both of us tonight, to bad its already spent : / Still good to get and pay pills.
Not sure about the plan for the rest of the day yet, have to shower I suppose and maybe make some phone calls, ya know I still wonder where the stupid vet bill went, I took the dog to the vet at least 5 months ago, I got to bills in the mail didn't pay either yet and I haven't seen a bill in 3 months now *shrug* Alright, Time to shower and clean some dishes up
-F.S.
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Posted: Mon May 21, 2007 12:49 pm
May 21st:
Slow day today, had a wonderful weekend filled with fun with my lil Krysy-poo smile Yesterday was our 1 year living together aniversary and I came home to the little wifey cookin dinner, classical piano music playin on the stereo, candles, balloons, was a perfectly wonderful surprise!
We stayed up pretty late last night so i'm feelin a bit worn down right now even after my double espresso and energy drink i'm still draggin, luckily I don't really have crap to do today except work for 4 hours, I can only imagine how Krys is feelin havin to work and inevitably get bitched out by some highschool punk with an ego trip who fell into a manager position at her job. Watched RENT on Saturday night and I wasn't all that impressed, I felt like the whole movie was too busy jumping in and out of lives, I wasn't able to form a connection with any of the characters and so I wasn't able to cry at any of the sad moments in the story. Krys enjoyed it more then I and had mentioned wanting the soundtrack so I may get it, strangely enough I usually really like musicals but this one kinda bugged me, I think Hairspray will be the next musical I check out only because my best friend has given it such rave reviews for the past 8 years, we'll see. Watched a documentary today called "girls kissing" thought that would be good too but of course it was crap, nothing but a handful of pornstars talking about lesbian sex scenes and some highschool kids debating whether or not the media influences them to be lesbians or bisexual, and to top it off interview after interview from random men trying to explain what it is about 2 "chicks" making out that gets them so hot, needless to say the documentary was not what I was expecting at all.
I'm deffinetly enjoy this hot weather, I have this Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday off and I reeeeallly can't decide if I should go home and see my Dad, Drive up and hang with some old friends or stay here with Krys, I'll more then likely stay here cause I can't stand being away to long, guess I'll know what i'm gonna do when I do it. Gotta finally repot my plants and try to sift through the storage closet and find out how much crap we really have for when we move cause the place isn't that big and I have about enough furniture here to fill a normal size house, might be pitchin some stuff out in the yard and haveing a sale *shrug* who knows, I feel a little lost right now, and I don't know why confused
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