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 Posted: Wed Apr 11, 2007 9:04 pm
I suppose that I ought to give a brief explanation of the title before anything else. Clotho is a figure from Greek mythology, one of the three fates to be precise.....
Secondly, you may comment if you wish to do so but at least try to be civil.
Anyway, I'm starting a journal because I don't know what else to do...I have run out of outlets, outlets which I need, to express myself frankly and honestly.
I am BloodlvstxBvtterflies, or Jesse if you prefer.
I have Asperger Syndrome, Inattentive ADD/ADHD, Anxiety, and Depression; I also have strong tendencies toward Schizotypy and a family history of Schizophrenia and other forms of mental illness (or, as I prefer, non-neurotypy).
I am seventeen years old, I was born on April 1st, 1990, at 7:05 pm, it was a Thursday.....and no, I am not a calendar calculator, I had to figure out how to do that....
I am gay.
my favorite word is Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia, which is the fear of long words.
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Posted: Wed Apr 11, 2007 9:13 pm
Entry 1:
Wednesday, April 11th, 2007.
Today has not been a good day, I have not left my house in five days and my friends are either ill, out of communication, or away.
My mood has been either tired or severely depressed.
(inner monologue: Why are all the local guys either straight or not interested?!)
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Posted: Wed Apr 11, 2007 10:11 pm
.......my journal's title is redundant.
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Posted: Thu Apr 26, 2007 5:21 am
insomnia...-headdesk-
it's 5am, I am tired but I can't stop thinking >< so I'm watching an idiotic zombie movie...ooh the skinned human hand just dropped down form the ceiling whee rofl.....nothing scares me anymore v.v
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Posted: Thu Apr 26, 2007 8:02 pm
well...today I spent several hours frightening people in stores ^^...then became terribly depressed v.v -headdesk-
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Posted: Wed May 30, 2007 12:09 am
I feel like I'm losing my mind v.v
I'm finding it increasingly difficult to control my emotions and thoughts; I am having unusual headaches that are accompanied my extreme and complex emotional states (and, frequently, an overwhelming desire to sleep at an inappropriate time of day.)
...and I'm having nasty allergies >.<
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Posted: Wed May 30, 2007 10:48 pm
well, the allergies turned out to be a sinus infection >.< oh well, at least I still have yet to have allergies.
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Posted: Wed Jun 06, 2007 7:51 pm
hmm, ever had one of those days when you just want to listen to music and do nothing else?
I'm having one of those days, but I have soooooo many songs available to listen to that putting the media player on random is all but useless for finding a song that I want to listen to >.<
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Posted: Sat Jul 07, 2007 3:23 am
My psych wants me to be evaluated, neurologically, to check for seizures... sweatdrop
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Posted: Sun Jul 29, 2007 1:46 am
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Posted: Sat Aug 04, 2007 10:09 pm
My...head...hurts.....owwww >.O
I haven't had my zoloft in two days.....weirdly, I feel less depressed but I have this horrible headache.
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Posted: Wed Oct 24, 2007 11:04 pm
My Psy.D prescribed 5mg Abilify today but the pharmacy was out, so I'll be getting it tomorrow.
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Posted: Wed Nov 14, 2007 2:31 am
You know....I was pretty bloody ******** happy until I read the "do you have any fetishes" thread in the GGBBG; now I just feel like ******** offing myself.
It's really starting to look like no one will ever find me attractive enough to get to know better.
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Posted: Wed Nov 14, 2007 3:31 am
I hear ya. I'm big and hairy myself and I don't have anyone.
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