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 Posted: Mon Jul 11, 2005 4:35 pm
This is something I wrote called 'The Best Friend'. I'm not too sure where it came from but it's got a certain place in my heart. Please tell me what you think and dont be too harsh.
He's standing next to me but he's watching her. I don't know why it matters really. He and I are just friends but it still hurts. The silent exchange between them, where he fades off mid-sentence while talking to me, seems to be the only thing living in the room; and I am held captive by its truth.
I have been blind all these months. I haven't paid attention to his disinterest when he's talking to me while she is in near proximity. I haven't really wanted to notice it. I was too scared that the realization may hold a feeling in his eyes that he never saw with me.
It was only a matter of time though. It was all destined to happen, I just had to give it time. Maybe I shouldn't have denied it this long. It may have hurt less if only I hadn't lied to myself. It is my own ignorance that has led to this pain, this heart break that doesn't seem to want to go away.
He's watching her now as he has for many months now. She walks gracefully around the room, stopping every so often to speak with the occasional guest. She had beauty that rivaled that of a Greek goddess. Every man wanted her, every woman hated her and yet, she was blissfully unaware. I think she practices that, looking so beautiful and being so clueless.
I want to know why she is so perfect. What is so amazing about her? Sure, she's beautiful and graceful and stuff but that means nothing when it comes down to it. In all truthfulness, she has a rather toxic personality. It is her downfall. She has a way to make you feel inadequate and I think that is why he is so attracted to her.
He is the type of person who will do anything to make sure that you're not utterly depressed. I think he sees her as a cause and a girlfriend in the same package. He sometimes cares too much. That is his flaw. It's not technically always a bad flaw but sometimes, it can lead to horrible things.
I sometimes wonder if he ever looks at me and thinks about me the way he thinks about her. It's not likely, considering the look in his eyes right now. God, how I love those eyes. They're the perfect mixture of blue and green. Damn it, I'm torturing myself with this.
She's walking towards us now. Her eyes are locked on his and I can tell that there's no point for me to even be here. My feelings for him (yes, I'm admitting it, I have feelings for him) are lost on the beauty of his Greek goddess.
Once she's reached us, they start talking and I slowly slip into the shadows. He doesn't even notice. When I reach the corner, I slip down to sitting on the floor. A soft, shy tear slips down my cheek and splashes to the floor. The sound is so quiet yet so loud.
This is me. This is what I will forever be. I am the best friend; never the girlfriend. This is me.
- <3 rose <3 -
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Posted: Mon Jul 11, 2005 6:39 pm
Bit hard to read because you seemed to have copied it over from something else. It makes those weird symbols in place of certain punctuation marks and it makes people's head all kafuzzly when they try to read it. It'd be much easier to understand if you just fix that.
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Posted: Tue Jul 12, 2005 10:00 am
OW!! You wrote it so well, I felt it. That's very good!
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Posted: Tue Jul 12, 2005 6:25 pm
I love this. It reminds me of a book-type diary. You know, the books that are written in diary forms? It's very emotional and truthful - it makes me want to read more about you and your friend, and makes me hope that one day you two end up together heart
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Posted: Wed Jul 13, 2005 9:26 pm
This is really good. It really portrays the sruggle of best friend/girl friend. I agree with what U4ic_Tendencies said. You could make this into a book written in the form of a diary. This ocould be one entry. It would be really cool.
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