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Yeah, I don't do too well with tradgedies like this. . .I empathize too much. I am going to ask the dean of my school if we can all wear orange and maroon on Friday though, like the students of the college have asked. We have a dress-down day then anyway. Too bad it's too short of notice to get bracelets or something like that made.

I never know what to do. . .but I want to do something to help.

These shootings always make me depressed. I always find myself crying for them. Being silent all day (for other reasons), really left my mind open to do whatever and it kept wandering back to Virginia Tech. I watched a special on the gunman and his face is now forever in my mind. Why didn't anyone listen to his English professor when she told them something was not right? I mean, a person must have had a very damaging life, bad coping mechanisms, or some sort of disorder to go off the deep end like that. The special did one part where it analyzed the classic mind of a killer such as him and it scared me a little because I know people who could someday fit that profile. I don't think any of them would do something like this but it does make you think.

I know it must sound horrible but I often empathize with the killer when they are a classic case like him. I sort of understand how they victimize themselves enough to do something this drastic. That hatred for the world. I don't believe it is right in any way but I just sort of... understand.

Other than him, there are two people who really stand out in my mind. The first is the original girl who was shot in the dorm. Why her? I highly doubt it was random. He seemed to plan it. So, why her? Did she know something? Was he obsessed with her? What? The other person is the german professor who survived the Holocaust. It's hard to imagine witnessing two things this horrible. I mean he lived through one just to be killed by the other.

That's my rant about it.

The only thing that can be done is to remember those that died and to educate others. I've find myself upset by other random killings, but there is little to do after the matter. I mean a little girl was molested and chopped to pieces. This kind of thing upset me the most because she was just a child. So How does one cope? I try to help every person I can in any way I can. Help the survivors deal with the pain and keep an eye out for anyone who could do this kind of thing. I've posted a list of online names that are used by ****** and try to be a helpful ear, but there isn't much else can do.

You can pray if you like, or stand up and protest a change to your government or something to show how you feel. Out here the government is adding stricter laws to bullies and added in online bullying to the list of things kids can be suspended from school for. However, one needs to get the kids to talk in order for something still be done in that case, yet it is a step in the right direction. They are also making it so people need a licence to just buy ammo, we just had a school shooting here back in September too. It is against the law to own most guns, aside from rifles for hunting that are breach loaded, meaning one shot at a time, people are still getting weapons illegally from the states. So they are going after anyone who sells guns out here and making it harder to get ammo and the like. So people are trying to make things better. As for the States it is a matter of changing the right to bare arms and that is not likely to happen unless a lot of people stand up against the government and show that there needs to be changes made.

Anyways, That is enough rambling out of me. Sorry to go on and on like this.

jaa ne

Kat