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JazzyMonkey

PostPosted: Tue May 08, 2007 3:27 am


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May 8th
Mood: Tired (is that a mood?)
Song: The Quidam Soundtrack
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3:16am! Woot! Why am I still here?

I sorta had a strange night. Mostly because of a strange friend whom shall remain nameless. It's hard to believe that I could of had such a strong influence on him. I usually have a positive affect on people, but I guess I crossed my limits with him. I like to tease, I can't help it. I really don't mean any harm when I do so. I feel bad mostly because of the fact that it made him so unhappy. I'm just not sure we're compatible friends. There are two many gaps in the way we see things, like he's my complete opposite. I don't mean to be mean to him, but I just can't help but to get frusterated and think of him as ignorant. But everyone's different. Its not fair for me to ask him to see things my way. To each his/her own I suppose. Meh, I won't lose sleep over it.

Oh gosh I'm hungry Dx I had 'supper' at, like, 6pm. That was over 9 hours ago. The smart move at this point would be to go to bed. I think I will do that actually.

Short post :3 Oh well

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PostPosted: Tue May 08, 2007 8:58 am


I wouldn't stress over it too much, that whole event was pretty 'B.S.' if you ask me. Your presence around him can not just 'morph' who he is and even if somehow it did the fault wouldnt be yours. His stress levels are problems of his own. When he is stressed out with you he's in the reaction state so it's his fault for getting to point A in the first place, then furthermore to point B. After reading the conversation I'm absolutely certain he was just looking for a reaction and doesn't mean what he says. There are too many holes in his theory especially if he, as he says, can't explain.

No worries wink

Goldmagnus
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JazzyMonkey

PostPosted: Fri May 11, 2007 12:48 am


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May 11th
Mood: Dazed
Song: Combat Baby-Metric (Thanks alot Seth =P)
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Gawd, I could listen to this song on repeat all day long.

Yuck towns drama. Why does it happen so often? I love towns most when everyone is just happy and getting along. I mean, gaia drama takes little things that happen and blow them way out of proportion. I wish everyone would just get over themselfs xD Oh well, that's why we're here right? To make towns fun again =D

Now, on a complete different subject, I really need to decide wether or not i want to go live with my dad next year. I mean, my mom has been complaining all year about me, and now she's all sad because I told I'd go live with my dad. She says that if I leave her now, I won't ever come back, which is probably true. She says she's not ready for it. I mean, it makes me feel terrible when she says stuff like that. I don't mean to be abandoning her like that, I just need my space. I'm going to be a full time music student next year, I know I'm going to need to be alone alot, but if I stay at my mom's, i know it won't happen alot. They don't go out much. My sister goes to school and pretty much come's strait home after that and doesn't go out on weekends, and my mom works at home most of the time. Not to mention we're three people living in a two bedroom appartment. I mean, that sucks Dx I liked it so much better when it was just me and my mom and she was working her normal job. She's so unstable Dx I have trouble handling it. It's great that she wants to follow her dreams and all, but she should've started a long time ago. Besides, I'm not even sure if she would be happy even if this Art business did work out for her. She always seems to have something to complain about. I love my mom, I really do. She's a great person. But sometimes, I just wanna shake her up and tell her to snap out of it! She's got all the misguided views on things. She's highly influenced by everything she hears, sees and reads. I sometimes evern wonder how many of her views are actually hers. Whatever, its probably not my place to be asking myself those questions. It's her life, not mine. She probably doesn't understand how my mind works either xD

It's weird how some people don't seem to think alot. It seems completly impossible to me to imagine not thinking, but I look around myself and just know some people don't have much brain activity going on xD I guess thinking can have its negative effects too, but I seriously cannot imagine not questioning myself the way I do. That's why it weirds me out to see my mom, who seems to be getting all her ideas from books. Books are great. The expand your mind, they allow you to think things you'd never though about thinking before. But to completly absorb everything books tells you is another thing. Then, you're just ghosting someone else's thoughts. So many people do it. They think that by reading books that great thinkers wrote, they will become thinkers themselfs. I mean, maybe its just me, but those people are in no way thinkers. They're not thinking up anything new, therefore, can't be thinkers.

Whatevs, I've gone way off subject. I'll probably read this again in the morning and be like "WTF Jazzy?". Psh, I'm a horrible blogger razz

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PostPosted: Fri May 11, 2007 12:59 pm


Hah@CombatBaby razz

Towns Drama, there should be a disclaimer when you log into towns for it. Nah but I believe the reason why it happens all the time is beacuse we are kids and honestly I know it will be denied but those who start it actually enjoy the drama cause it draws attention to them, they are able to stress their points, and it gives them something to be hostile about y'know? I'm not saying it's not a stressful 'thing' but like I said we're young. We (in most cases) really don't have anything worth worrying about yet in our lives so the conflict between our gaia peers is in such high priority. Nonetheless it doesn't make a bit of difference, guys. the balls are inert (Ha ha piccolo joke). or in other words it doesn't matter cause in due time (shorter than longer in most cases) it'll be a thing of the past and we'll all have some new gaia event to stress over if we choose to participate wink

About living with your father. That is a very complicated decision and I'm sure I'll be writing a response here for awhile. Alright, lets start with ground rules. "Why do I feel like I should/shouldn't do this" "Will this help me with what I have chosen to do in the next X-Months/Years" "Is this really what I want?...Why?"

I'll just sum up your entry in a nutshell:

"I'm considering living with my father because I need some alone time, I'm having a difficult time living with my mother and I think it can help me pursue what I want in life"

I think you should do a lot more thinking before you make such a big decision because your desire for alone time is probably not all as great as it sounds. If you think about it you're going to have looooooads of alone time in about oh 19 months ;P - Probably a little more. Not a lot is really going to change in your ways of thinking and ability to do things for your music if you stay with your mother for another 19 months (in my opinion) - The point I'm stressing the most is that you'll have a huge chunk of your life to do whatever you desire. To have the alone time you want, your own personal space but what you have now may not really be all that bad. The lifestyle situation you are in at the moment has an experiation date and in due time you'll be on your own regardless. If I were in your situation I'd just enjoy the company of my family as much as I can until those 20 months come along and you'll be far too focused on building your life with me to really spend the quality time with your mother. Eventually you will have your alone time, your work to keep you busy and hopefully a nice place to come home to where I'll be living as well and you'll have that for many years I hope.

But if the differences between your mother and you are that drastic to where you can't stand it. To where it's actually depressing living where you are and you absolutley just need your alone time then there is nothing wrong with considering something that may be better for you. Though there are less drastic moves you could make such as getting out of the house more, pick up a few hobbies or something instead of having to completely leave your current home.

I'll support your decision whatever it may be, just make sure you really think it over and ask yourself after you have "Is this really what I want though"

Either way I'm sure life will be good to us both I just hope your father wont hate me xd

P.S. another thing you may want to think about is if this decision is just to run away from problems rather than deal and cope with them. It could be a fun experiment to see if you could find some peace of mind despite the little dilema giong on with your mom. Who knows you could even realize that it may not really be all that much of a problem after all wink

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Goldmagnus
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PostPosted: Fri May 11, 2007 1:46 pm


Okay so I read this earlier and I had intended to reply to it but Gold pretty much covered it. xp The only thing I can say is that if you do decide to move into your father's house, make sure that you try and keep the relationship between your mother and you going in a positive direction, (even if you feel like it isn't there now.) I would sit with her and tell her why you are choosing to move into your fathers (but you might want to consider leaving out parts that are more critical of her and keep it to more needing space and privacy so you can keep up with your studies better.) My mother and I used to argue all the time but once I moved away it was what we needed to strengthen our relationship. A year later she is now like my best friend (but if you told me a year ago I wouldn't have believed you.) I know I tend to ramble so I hope this all makes sense but overall, just try to make your leaving as easy on her as possible, it could just be worth it in the end.
PostPosted: Fri May 11, 2007 1:47 pm


Another good point. Yeah if you decide to go through with it it would be nice to keep a good relationship with your mom so she doesn't hate me or something! Hahaha

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JazzyMonkey

PostPosted: Tue May 15, 2007 5:14 pm


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May 15th
Mood: Free <3
Song: "Don't Be Cruel" Elvis Presley
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1 Month biggrin Me and Seth have been together for 1 month today :3 And what a wonderful month this has been <3 It's amazing how fast time goes when you're happily in love xD

I'm so excited for camping trip next week :3 It's gonna be a blast! It always is. I mean, I'm not the biggest fan of camping, but trips like this I can really enjoy.

I was so irritable at work today xD I think its really time for me to take a break from it. I hate working with my boss' wife. She is so bossy and is always telling me I'm doing things wrong xD I've been there for a freakin year, I know what I'm doing!!! Jebus...(Yes, I mean to spell it like that)I can't wait to be done with this job. Viva summer! I've been a good little employee all year, and now I just want a break xD

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