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[Aevey]

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[Aevey]

Who am I?

That's what I'd like to know!

What I do know is that I'm a 21 year old who has lived her whole life in the same city she was born in. I'm close to my family and come from a long line of very strong women, as well as psychics. I know that I'm some sort of "beacon of hope" for my family, in that apparently I'm further along spiritually than them. I highly don't believe this, but it's what they've told me. I'm also the second person on my mum's side to go to college, and I'm currently studying Religion and Psychology.

I was raised secularly, so my beliefs are very much a mish-mash. I love religion, though, and have attended services at Hare Krishna temples, Mosques, Synagogues, several Baha'i gatherings, as well as various churches of different denominations. My current dream visit: A Pentecostal Church.

I know little about myself at a spiritual level, and this is something I've been working to correct the past six years. I'm missing a lot of my childhood memories, as well, and what I do know, I can't trust fully. I have a feeling this is going to be a long journey.  

[Aevey]

Empathic Bonds and Mingling Energies

Surely you've been around people where you just feel this "click" with them. Those strange times when you've felt safe enough to speak of secrets with a complete stranger. And the reverse--an inexplicable aversion to certain people you've just met that you simply can't explain.

With an average person, if I were to see them cry, I would become teary-eyed and feel their pain to a certain extent. If they were to be angry, I would freeze up entirely as I felt my blood pumping through my veins like battery acid; a sinking feeling in my stomach. If they were to be happy, I'd share in it with a sense of deep calm. This is normal for me.

However, there are some individuals that have a stronger effect on me. I will never forget the day I ran into a complete stranger at my job and literally froze in my tracks until a co-worker had to shake me out of it. His energy caught me so off guard. These events happen maybe once a month to mild degrees when I'm out in the general public.

These bonds are deeper and stronger with my friends and family. My mum and sister, if they cry, I cry. If they hurt, I hurt. Still, this isn't too atypical for empaths.

What IS atypical is the way two people in my life's energy reacts with mine. After three years, I've learned to put up enough barriers with one of them to safely manage myself. The other, I don't stand a chance in hell.

Let me explain a little bit. When person X feels a little down or depressed, I become a little naseuated and dizzy, and feel my heart sink to the pit of my stomach. This is with the barriers; without the barriers, I would be sobbing as well. Person Y...when they feel a little bit down, I can find myself huddled over the toilet losing my lunch and crying uncontrollably, feeling as if my heart is being ripped out of my chest. This is without barriers.

BUT, it wasn't until recently I noticed I reacted so strongly to person Y, so I haven't had any chance to put up any barriers, nor do I have any idea how to do so. This is why my Empathy thread is on hiatus, and part of why I have been so dodgy lately.

Empathy can be a b***h.  

[Aevey]

Tarot

This past month, I recently started doing Tarot readings. Before this time, I had only done three-card readings with my Archangel Oracle deck which, those of you who use one will know, it tends to only give positive readings. So it has definitely been the start of a very interesting journey for me.

If I had to estimate, I'd say I have done about ten readings so far. The reported accuracy rating has been 100% for general to spot-on readings. I'm not saying that to sound cocky or arrogant, and I do have to use my books still; four of them to be precise. But where once I was intimidated, I'm starting to feel I can put my empathy to good use through Tarot.

I also tried, for the first time, on Saturday creating my own spread. It worked out quite well.

Again, if anyone is interested in being my guinea pig, just PM me with the general situation or, if you have one, a specific question, and I'll get back to you with the reading. And it's not just a one-reading deal; if you want more than one done, feel free to ask at any point! heart  

[Aevey]

An Unexpected Twist

If you had asked me a year ago where I thought I'd be today as far as my "abilities" go, I never would have guessed I'd be here. And I'm still trying to cope with this twist.

I figured, hey. I can sense people's emotions pretty well; I can calm people down when needed just by being around them. I can get a decent read on people as well. In my dreams, I meet angels and spirits, and sometimes the occasional negative entity. All fine and dandy. So, logically, my empathy'd get stronger and I'd learn to better meet these beings in my dreams, right?

Well...not quite. My empathy has gotten stronger, that's for sure. But my dreams took a turn I never would have guessed. Apparently I have this uncanny ability to dream about information I shouldn't know; but only dealing with a few select individuals. It's not even precognitive; I don't know what to call it. And I don't know how to control it, which is terribly frustrating.

I wonder what turn things will take next...