The Magic Jacket
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My best friends just pulled me out of the bathroom stalls at the races telling
me that i had to talk to him, tell him what was wrong with me, why i suddenly
went into my emotinal fit of confussion. i was tired of lying to my family
and keeping him, my happness a secret. it was pulling my heart in to five
million pieces and what they had said in the bathroom really tore me up
even more. I knew one of my friends wanted my boyfriend for her own again
so her "maybe you should just dump him" was just tuned right out. but my
best friend was right "if it is ment to happen it will happen"
little did i know that is wasn't ment to happen.... and that every thought
of him would always break my heart
"I... i... I just don't know what to do anymore!" i sobed into him. holding
him close like there was nothing left to keep me from falling into the black
pit of nothingness below my feet, besides him. The night was dark and the
only light came from the track.
"well i can't make you chosie..." he said and whipped away a tear and placed
his hand under my chin and tilted up my head so he could look into my eyes.
i felt foolish at this point.
I cluched his camo jacket and pulled my head back down. thats not what i
wanted to hear from him. i wanted to hear "it will be alright... we'll work threw this"
but thats not what came out of his mouth. it sent me into more tears.
i felt like the fool and my heart wasn't even in on the joking.... his
arms tightened around me as another shutter went threw my body. i
could smell him as i barried myself into him deeper my hands grasping
the camo jacket tighter like it could fix everything, suddenly he slipped
threw the black whole at my feet too. Leaving the Camo Jacket as the
only thing to comfort me.
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