It maybe just me, but I think I'm stupid. I can't stop listening to all these songs that remind me of her. This might sound strange, but I want to cry and I'm so sad/drpressed I feel like throwing up; right now I'm fixated on a band called Secondhand Serenade, also I keep hearing/seeing these really poetic line in my head like: "I keep praying I can't swim so I can drown, I can feel the waves crashing above me, grab my hand so I won't drown." Right now there's one song by this band that's really sicking out to me, it's called "Half Alive" I think it's about this guy who's been seperated from this girl for whatever reason and he's trying to kill himself, but he can't beacuse he remembers how beautiful her eyes were, so he wants her to save him. LaShaunna, please save me. I'm drowning, I'm suffacating, I'm dying here with out you. I'm so sorry.

If i had known I was going to hurt her this much it would have been better to never met her in the first place