I have these two friends, who I will call Friend Al and friend Ash.
Two years ago I had two other friends, who both didn't like each other.
They fought each and spread rumors about each and me.
After a while they finally told me that I had to choose between them,
and since I had been ditched on several occasions by one of the friends, I chose the other.
But the next year she moved across the country.
I was left friendless and lonely.
That was when Friend Al, her friend and I became close friends.
After a while Friend Al and her friend began to fight, and they decide to go their separate ways, and that was when her friend warned me not to be her friend anymore.
Of course I just thought "Oh, she's just doing that because she's angry" an shrugged it off.
We soon became best friends.
The next year (being the year that just past) we met Friend Ash and befriended her because she seemed nice,
and that's when the trouble began.
I am not tolerant of people who only want to talk about boys.
Which was all Ash and Al wanted to do.
In fact, it's like they became stupid.
Whenever I tried to have a conversation Al about book or movies like I used to, she would look at me like I was insane and continue to talk about the boy she liked.
Then Al started to do mean things to me and Ash,
whenever we told her a secret, she would tell everyone else.
She would also push my papers off my desk,
borrow money and then act like it never happened so she wouldn't have to pay me back,
and when we switched tested to mark, she would always say a lower mark to the teacher than the mark I actually got.
That was when I began becoming close friends with Ash.
We liked each other, and shared the same hurt feelings from Al.
Unfortunately my feelings of happiness didn't last long didn't last long.
She became like a leech.
She once called me 14 times before 8am.
I asked her to stop calling me, and I wasn't very nice about.
Then she started acting like she was better than me.
She insulted me clothes, my hair, and even some of the new friends I was trying to make.
I just got really angry and I started acting really mean to them.
When they insulted me, I insulted them back.
I tried to push them farther and farther away.
I tried to hang out with some new friends, but then they came and clinged to me (literally).
I even went so far as to tell them that I didn't want to be my friends anymore.
I was a complete jerk.
Which made me even more angry.
I was a little thundercloud whenever they were around.
One day they asked me: Why are you so mean to us?
And I said: Because I'm a b***h, and you better get used to it.
In which I case I realized I was completely right and went off and cried in the bathroom for an hour.
To get to the point,
I hate what I've become.
And I don't know if it's was because of them,
or if I'm just a terrible person.
I've tried to be better, but whenever they come around, I just go back to my old ways.
What should I do?
(Sorry for the wall of text)
Two years ago I had two other friends, who both didn't like each other.
They fought each and spread rumors about each and me.
After a while they finally told me that I had to choose between them,
and since I had been ditched on several occasions by one of the friends, I chose the other.
But the next year she moved across the country.
I was left friendless and lonely.
That was when Friend Al, her friend and I became close friends.
After a while Friend Al and her friend began to fight, and they decide to go their separate ways, and that was when her friend warned me not to be her friend anymore.
Of course I just thought "Oh, she's just doing that because she's angry" an shrugged it off.
We soon became best friends.
The next year (being the year that just past) we met Friend Ash and befriended her because she seemed nice,
and that's when the trouble began.
I am not tolerant of people who only want to talk about boys.
Which was all Ash and Al wanted to do.
In fact, it's like they became stupid.
Whenever I tried to have a conversation Al about book or movies like I used to, she would look at me like I was insane and continue to talk about the boy she liked.
Then Al started to do mean things to me and Ash,
whenever we told her a secret, she would tell everyone else.
She would also push my papers off my desk,
borrow money and then act like it never happened so she wouldn't have to pay me back,
and when we switched tested to mark, she would always say a lower mark to the teacher than the mark I actually got.
That was when I began becoming close friends with Ash.
We liked each other, and shared the same hurt feelings from Al.
Unfortunately my feelings of happiness didn't last long didn't last long.
She became like a leech.
She once called me 14 times before 8am.
I asked her to stop calling me, and I wasn't very nice about.
Then she started acting like she was better than me.
She insulted me clothes, my hair, and even some of the new friends I was trying to make.
I just got really angry and I started acting really mean to them.
When they insulted me, I insulted them back.
I tried to push them farther and farther away.
I tried to hang out with some new friends, but then they came and clinged to me (literally).
I even went so far as to tell them that I didn't want to be my friends anymore.
I was a complete jerk.
Which made me even more angry.
I was a little thundercloud whenever they were around.
One day they asked me: Why are you so mean to us?
And I said: Because I'm a b***h, and you better get used to it.
In which I case I realized I was completely right and went off and cried in the bathroom for an hour.
To get to the point,
I hate what I've become.
And I don't know if it's was because of them,
or if I'm just a terrible person.
I've tried to be better, but whenever they come around, I just go back to my old ways.
What should I do?
(Sorry for the wall of text)
