1st, I love my mother so much...but I just can't live this way anymore.
Well, this is going to be long so don't read it if you don't want to.
About when I was ten, My oldest sister strayed away from her beliefs. That's when this all started happening...Then my older sister strayed away too, then my mom.
Pretty soon, no one believed any more but me. My sister decided that she was homosexual and I wasn't going to accept it, she knows I wouldn't. My mom is very angry that I do not accept her being homosexual. My mom started to Control everyone.
It started with my brother, when he was around 11 or 12, she started Verbally abusing, and physically, AND emotionally. I ended up yelling at my mom much of the time because of what she did to my brother.
She started verbally and emotionally abusing me at around the age of 13. It's been a year or so now, and I can't take this anymore.....She bitches at me for the most idiotic things....like not going to school cause I'm feeling sick. Last week when we were on Vacation, things got so bad....This is basically how it was:
"You look like a ******** pig go take a ******** damn shower mother ******** didn't say anything.
"You think you're going to have a Good day? Well no your not unless you go take a ******** shower."
I said, "I'm not having a shower, We're going swimming soon at the beach."
"Things are going to be damn ******** miserable for you if you don't have a ******** mother ******** shower."
She left in a huff to her room, still bitching at me for not wanting a shower, since I had had one the night before, and I would have one when we got back from the pool.
She came out and saw me bawling silently while I was getting my medication. "I didn't mean to hurt you I just wanted you to have a ******** shower."
"YOU ATTACKED ME!" I was still bawling
"Well I'm sorry."
I ran out the door and closed it..I sat on the steps of the hotel and waited for my dad to get there.
Things go on.....
"What's wrong Liz?" (dad)
"Mom." (me)
"What did she do?" (Bro)
"She attacked me!!" (Crying hysterically again.)
Dad bangs on the door and goes inside.
"IS THIS HOW YOU WANT TO TREAT YOUR DAUGHTER? IS THIS WHAT YOU WANT HER TO FEEL LIKE CONSTANTLY!?" (dad)
"I only wanted her to have a shower, I didn't DO anything!" (mom)
"Stop Lying, Mom!" (me) "You know what you did!"
I don't remember anything else passed that point of the conversations. I went to my brothers and Dads hotel room and Dad asked me..
"Do you want to have anything to do with your mother anymore? Do you want to live with her?"
I shook my head
He told me to tell him in two days.
By then we were getting a long, I guess. We wouldn't have been if I didn't tell dad what happened.
My Mom started bitching over everything once we got home from Vacation, again. She started with my brother by having a problem over everything he does and rolling his eyes at him like he is stupid or something. I yell at mom every time she does that to my brother.
Do you know what Mom says? "What? I didn't do anything, I only told him to stop." When she obviously was cursing her head off to him.
Reminds you of a three year old who says "I didn't do it." Doesn't it? rolleyes
That's basically what our lives have been like for four years now. (since it all started.)
I can't take it. But I love my mother, too, and I really don't want to leave her...but I don't want to live in these conditions any more.
If my parents get a divorce, I probably won't be able to see my Little nephew, Evan, much anymore..neither my Family in CA.
Makes me cry each time I think about that. cry
Please help me....
Well, this is going to be long so don't read it if you don't want to.
About when I was ten, My oldest sister strayed away from her beliefs. That's when this all started happening...Then my older sister strayed away too, then my mom.
Pretty soon, no one believed any more but me. My sister decided that she was homosexual and I wasn't going to accept it, she knows I wouldn't. My mom is very angry that I do not accept her being homosexual. My mom started to Control everyone.
It started with my brother, when he was around 11 or 12, she started Verbally abusing, and physically, AND emotionally. I ended up yelling at my mom much of the time because of what she did to my brother.
She started verbally and emotionally abusing me at around the age of 13. It's been a year or so now, and I can't take this anymore.....She bitches at me for the most idiotic things....like not going to school cause I'm feeling sick. Last week when we were on Vacation, things got so bad....This is basically how it was:
"You look like a ******** pig go take a ******** damn shower mother ******** didn't say anything.
"You think you're going to have a Good day? Well no your not unless you go take a ******** shower."
I said, "I'm not having a shower, We're going swimming soon at the beach."
"Things are going to be damn ******** miserable for you if you don't have a ******** mother ******** shower."
She left in a huff to her room, still bitching at me for not wanting a shower, since I had had one the night before, and I would have one when we got back from the pool.
She came out and saw me bawling silently while I was getting my medication. "I didn't mean to hurt you I just wanted you to have a ******** shower."
"YOU ATTACKED ME!" I was still bawling
"Well I'm sorry."
I ran out the door and closed it..I sat on the steps of the hotel and waited for my dad to get there.
Things go on.....
"What's wrong Liz?" (dad)
"Mom." (me)
"What did she do?" (Bro)
"She attacked me!!" (Crying hysterically again.)
Dad bangs on the door and goes inside.
"IS THIS HOW YOU WANT TO TREAT YOUR DAUGHTER? IS THIS WHAT YOU WANT HER TO FEEL LIKE CONSTANTLY!?" (dad)
"I only wanted her to have a shower, I didn't DO anything!" (mom)
"Stop Lying, Mom!" (me) "You know what you did!"
I don't remember anything else passed that point of the conversations. I went to my brothers and Dads hotel room and Dad asked me..
"Do you want to have anything to do with your mother anymore? Do you want to live with her?"
I shook my head
He told me to tell him in two days.
By then we were getting a long, I guess. We wouldn't have been if I didn't tell dad what happened.
My Mom started bitching over everything once we got home from Vacation, again. She started with my brother by having a problem over everything he does and rolling his eyes at him like he is stupid or something. I yell at mom every time she does that to my brother.
Do you know what Mom says? "What? I didn't do anything, I only told him to stop." When she obviously was cursing her head off to him.
Reminds you of a three year old who says "I didn't do it." Doesn't it? rolleyes
That's basically what our lives have been like for four years now. (since it all started.)
I can't take it. But I love my mother, too, and I really don't want to leave her...but I don't want to live in these conditions any more.
If my parents get a divorce, I probably won't be able to see my Little nephew, Evan, much anymore..neither my Family in CA.
Makes me cry each time I think about that. cry
Please help me....
I just believed that I was all displaced.
