nothing's ever my fault. not with us, not in the real world... nothing's ever my fault, nothing's ever been my fault. I don't know what it's like. I want to know... I'll admit I've lived a rather sheltered life... I just wish I could be like everyone else now. doing things that I really shouldn't. but it's like... I don't know how. is it inhuman to not know how to do wrong? because I don't feel human.... I don't know. everyone always says nothing is my fault. that I'm so sweet, so loveable, that I'm perfect... but no one is perfect. yet.... I never hear otherwise. what am I...? it's not fair. I don't want to be perfect...
why can't I be like everyone else? I'm kept away from the world. I'm never meant to see what really goes on. yet I know... and I can't help it. I'm "perfect". I can't be scarred. for years I knew no emotion. maybe that's what made me perfect. I was nothing. to everyone else, I was everything. the only thing that makes me human now is the emotion I feel. I feel love. it's a human thing.... but I still don't feel natural. I feel like something that was created to know no emotions. it's horrible. I know I am human. I know I do feel emotions, and I know I am "normal". but it doesn't feel like it. ... it scares me.
Koware-Yasui · Tue May 08, 2007 @ 02:57am · 0 Comments |