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Am i ******** up
for the way my mind works
i think about it
and i realize
wow i sound ******** crazy
i think the worst about every situation
i used to try to hold on to life
but it just kept on slipping away
but now i have you to live for
i need you
without you i would die
do you understand?
is it ******** up
to depend on someone so much
i feel like the only reason you stay with me
is bc i say i need you so much
its like you feel guilty
thats probably not the case
its just the way my mind is
am i ******** crazy?
crazy for you baby
i hate my mind
i hate everything about me
except for my heart
which belongs to you anyways
so its not really mine
does your heart belong to me?
do you depend on me as much as i do on you?
promise me we'll be forever
never leave me
bc i don't know what i would do if i lost you
i would die
not just on the inside
i would completely die
if you were here
would you hold me?
let me cry on your shoulder?
but you not :[