~Cry Babie~
~Tear's~
Well, No matter how much you love someone, In the end you will die alone... Unless in a car crash or something then you two might die together but it is highly unlikly to die with your loved one... You will alway's end up hurting in the end... But I wouldn't mind that if I could die before another broken heart... I wouldn't mind being happy until I die... But I can't even be happy for a year... I just want to be loved for who I am... I wanna know the feeling of true love... Not lie's... I've had enough of being lied too by my ex's which all left me for other girl's ALL OF THEM! There wasn't ONE who didn't... It make's me think how good am I really if all my ex's break up with me for other girl's or worse cheat... Karma is a b***h and one day everyone who hurt me will get there's... And when it happen's I hope I'm there laughing... I am sorry, It's a bit harsh to say but the pain I feel on the inside won't go away...
~Feeling's~
I am so mixxed up right now, I havn't a clue what is right or wrong anymore... Someone very dear to me is bound to be hurt by the man who hurt me before, The guy I was sooo in love with I grew blind and placed him before the people who should of came first, My family... Holy... I loved him, Would of gave up everything and yet, He dump's me and not even 8 day's later goe's after his ex. My best friend... I can't tell her no because she love's him and I want her happy... But if I say yes, I'll be leading her into a heart break again... I don't know what to say... Some people say let her do it and let her learn the lesson, While other's think I'm being selfish by not telling her how I feel... I am hurt... And I feel used... The guy who said, no promised he was in love with me walked out of my life... And goes after one of the closest people to me again... He hurt her already but she love's him so much... I can't stand to see her unhappy and if being with him make's her happy who am I just stand in her way... But when and if he hurt's her I will alway's be on stand by... I will alway's be there for her... She make's me feel like noone else does... And I'm selfish because I'm scared to lose her, And I'm jealous because my heart is being stepped on by the guy who held it so "CLOSE" to his or said he did... My heart has been broken... And it wasn't fully healed from my other ex... It will never be healed... Because noone will ever give me the chance to show my love to them... I wish I didn't cry over him so much... I know he's not worth it... I know I'm to good for him now... I just wish I could see through his lie's... I wish I was smarter... I wish I could just wish away my heart... My feeling's... My soul...
~Dream's~
The only place I am safe from tear's is in my dream's, I try and hide my sadness when talking to people, Acting as though it doesn't bother me to be pushed around and kicked... Acting as though my heart is cold... It is easy for me to act... But to mean it... It hurt's... Where can I run now... No where... My best friend is with the guy who hurt me and her... I can't run to her and cry because he's now her's... I havn't a place in this world I can feel safe unless I am asleep... I love my best friend because she made me feel better... But she love's him too... And me loving him just won't help anything... I'm going to push away the only guy who truly understood me for my best friend... Because she mean's that much to me... It hurt's because I can't run to her and tell her my problem's because she has lived them, she know's them... And soon she will be crying again... Maybe not... Maybe he has changed... But I doubt it... He fooled me once... He fooled me twice... I can't be blinded again by his lies... His false hope's he made me see... I am sooo sick of everything guy's do...!
~Poem By Breezy Rose (AKA) Me~
...Final.Good.Bye...
When I Think Of You I Cry From The Pain You Put Me Through
The Ache's I Feel From Word's You Said That Just Weren't Real Wish I Were Dead
Such Pain Inside From The "I Love You's" And All The Time's You've Lied
Wanting To Die Because Of You My Feeling's I'll Hide Thinking You Were True
Loss Of Dream's Learned Your Lies Seen Your Sceam's
Missing You Alot Not Wanting To Cry Letting You Go With My Final Good Bye
~Song Of Thought~
...Why.Do.I.Love.You...:...Westlife...
Suddenly she's Leaving Suddenly the Promise of love has gone Suddenly Breathing seems so hard to do
Carefully you Planned it I got to know just A minute to late, oh girl now I understand it All the times we Made love together Baby you were thinking of him
Why do I love you Don't even want to Why do I love you like I do Like I always do You should've told me Why did you have to be untrue (love you like I do) Why do I love you like I do
Ain't gonna show no Weakness I'm gonna smile And tell the whole world I'm fine I'm gonna keep my senses But deep down When no one can hear me Baby I'll be crying for you
.B.R.E.E.Z.Y. · Tue Apr 05, 2005 @ 07:52am · 2 Comments |