No fair!!!
I was like yAy! I get to see him tomorrow but that just got whipped out from under me when my mother decided to say he CAN'T come. She's mean. Just coz she can't be bothered to have us in the house!!!
No fair =[
Again lol.
Just wish I could start my apprenticeship now and get that over and done with so that I can finally be living with Onny, no arranging things, no random nights here and there. Just together. Like it should be. We belong together. Mum was quite shocked to find out my course starts so soon, almost feel sorry for her really. Not sure why she would miss me though, i'm hardly on the scene of what you would call me 'family'.
I fit in more with Jonny's family, they accept me for who I am and don't judge me for it, my mum just feels like she has to compete against me. Kind of thing. Which I hate, and is one of the moain reasons my family is pushing me out,. Along with other reasons.
I love Jonny with all my heart, it feels almost like an obsession, he's always there in my mind, just wanting me to touch him, hold him, kiss him...Be close to him. But I can't and that frustrates the fook outta me! I look at pictures of him, wishing he was with me, I have things that remind me of him, his deodrants, underwear, clothes, close things to me, the necklace that he gave me before we even met, didn't think i'd have it for this long, didn't think we'd last this long, but we have, and for that I am glad.
I gave him the key to me heart and if he keeps it forever I will be a very happy person for the rest of my life, I will always love him, from now, until forever...
<3 xXx <3
I was like yAy! I get to see him tomorrow but that just got whipped out from under me when my mother decided to say he CAN'T come. She's mean. Just coz she can't be bothered to have us in the house!!!
No fair =[
Again lol.
Just wish I could start my apprenticeship now and get that over and done with so that I can finally be living with Onny, no arranging things, no random nights here and there. Just together. Like it should be. We belong together. Mum was quite shocked to find out my course starts so soon, almost feel sorry for her really. Not sure why she would miss me though, i'm hardly on the scene of what you would call me 'family'.
I fit in more with Jonny's family, they accept me for who I am and don't judge me for it, my mum just feels like she has to compete against me. Kind of thing. Which I hate, and is one of the moain reasons my family is pushing me out,. Along with other reasons.
I love Jonny with all my heart, it feels almost like an obsession, he's always there in my mind, just wanting me to touch him, hold him, kiss him...Be close to him. But I can't and that frustrates the fook outta me! I look at pictures of him, wishing he was with me, I have things that remind me of him, his deodrants, underwear, clothes, close things to me, the necklace that he gave me before we even met, didn't think i'd have it for this long, didn't think we'd last this long, but we have, and for that I am glad.
I gave him the key to me heart and if he keeps it forever I will be a very happy person for the rest of my life, I will always love him, from now, until forever...
<3 xXx <3
