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right...your totally right devon...life sucks...and ya no naz i dont wanna be mean to you but sumtimes you act like JERK and misaki too...sorry... i just wish one day u would actually act your age...be mature...ok ok u can guess im pissed...again iono y.....also life has its advantages and disadvantages like being short or tall....i mean you can do things that sum ppl can and then you cant do things that other ppl can..i mean u can sulk over but its not gonna change anything and devon...i kinda no how you feel...im different and u cant tell me im not...im not allowed to listen to music unless its classical, i cant wear pants etc....but there are alot of things that i can do....i hate seeing u or anyone sad...i just have go with the flow...same with u....and learn to love life...and that is seriously hard cause life sucks...i wish that things were better...u no i was soooo excited about going to gr.5....i had high hopes about it...ive been waiting all my life for gr.5 for grad.,but this year has turned into a nitemare....everyone is changing....maturing...learning how to handle problems...and that is what i hate....im even changing....i just want the old me back...my old friends back i want them to be themselves again...but i no life will never be the same again...beccause i no its to late to change back...i have to learn to change and except the new me...and cope with things i dont even no how to handle....its so hard...omgsh crying i just wish that my parents new what exactly i was going through so i wouldnt get blamed for having an attitude...there always saying if u want to tell us sumthing, tell us...so i say it and i get in trouble...talk about fairness....anyway im burdening myself with too many burdens... but who's shoulders can i put my burdens on now?they all have there own burdens...i dont no how long i can hold on now....my only hope now is to pray. crying