Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

what can I say? I am human afterall, I have desires, passions, fears, merits, and flaws alike.... I won't back down from what I want in my life, I have confidence in my abilities, realize my potential, I don't care what others think about me. I take care of those close to me as best as I can without getting myself into too much trouble but there are times when I can't take anymore of certain things....
Here are my biggest fears...Spiders (I kill them on the spot), mirrors in the dark, porcelain dolls (creepy evil things), and living my life alone without a special woman there beside me. I either have or can overcome all of my fears one way or another but the living life alone part, well working on that one cuz I have come to the conclusion that there is nobody out there who can understand me, my ambitions or what i stand for, (i wait to be proven wrong)...
Who would be the perfect woman you ask?
1. be herself. simple enough.
2. to best understand me, be into a lot of the same things I am passionate about.
3. be positive when I am negative to bring me out of it AND when they're negative me being positive will bring them back up. (yeah it can happen, im not superman)
4. dont ever try to change anything about me, just accept it, because i will accept you.
5. wrap their arms around me when i feel negative or just do it when i least expect it
6. not always being all mushy but now always being serious.
7. fun, adventerous, (being spontaneous isnt bad either, just a bonus, not required)
8. when a promise is made, it stays unless something major happens...
9. not prude but not nympho either, (in between is preferred...)
10. not be too affectionate when around other ppl besides me (it just seems rude, a peck is fine every once in a while)
11. its ok to get mad at one another sometimes but never stay angry, let's talk it out after some chill time...(always being passive is bad and so is always being aggressive)
12. no controlling of either person will occur, equal-ish partnership is needed.

its all a give a little and take a little with me....with me around one will have loyalty, respect, security, fun, and random body messages (or your money back! LOL!)

last note: yeah i do have a son, he doesnt live with me and he is still an infant. hope this fact can be accepted
yeah im a Dream Chaser...maybe this is unrealistic to chase but what harm can it do to try...