I don't write much in these online journals. I've been kinda busy, there are two, count them, one, two days left in school, and only three class periods I actually have to go to. Maybe four. My ear feels like I stuck a fork in all the way and twisted it. My cell phone has been ringing on and off all day. I've dyed my hair twice in the past week and a half. Found out that I had a raging sinus infection, and was given antibiotics, and they are the largest pills I have ever taken. I fell asleep after an exam today and was disturbing other students with my snoring, according to my english teacher. (I dont't snore unless my nasal passages are blocked, meaning I'm sick.)
My ex shaved his head, so we call him p***s head, and he touched my gf, so
I of course threatened to kill him if he so much as looked at her again. I used to love him, so much, but we fell apart, and there's not much I can feel for him anymore. He screwed up, and we spilt. I still have dreams about what we used to have when I'm restless. I can admit that I'm immature when it comes to relationships, so in order to distance myself from him emotionally I poke fun, and taunt him, try to embarass him into leaving all of us alone. I called him a c** guzzling p***s head poser, and (i believe he was crying) he left. Sometimes I miss him, only sometimes, and when I see him I want to have him again, them I remember how short a time ago it was when I was lying in my bed, my chest heaving with sobs, and crying until I had no tears left, then coughing and sobbing, finally falling asleep.
I love my girl, so much, she's my world and I've wanted her since more than a year ago, but we decided to date at a bad time. She's with this guy mike, and he wants to marry her, and there I am, standing on the sidelines, wishing I could have her just for me. I dont think that's too selfish of me. maybe I shouldn't date anymore.....
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