My heart is still in pain after my breakup with my girlfriend, even though it has been a little more than a month and a half. I'm not sure if I love her or not anymore, but what I do know is that things are getting better: slowly. I'd just like to have my heart completely healed and just feel happy again, like I used to be everyday. I used to be happy all the time. After 10 years of hell daily happiness was bliss.
I have a way to go before I'm healed. I'm nowhere on the dating scene, but my ex is already checking out "cute guys". I can't stand to hear her talk of that, so I end up usually fading out into the darkness. Nobody seems to notice me though, but I should be used to that. I'm only noticed when I want to be noticed, and I speak when others are too afraid to speak, which gives me some pride.
I need one of this quick-fix girlfriends you date to recover from a breakup. It's quite a shame that I'm so ugly, otherwise it'd be an easy task. sweatdrop
Anyway, I'm gonna go and make a copy of one of my InuYasha albums for my ex. I'm also gonna wonder if I ever want to fall in love again if only to feel this pain...
BearFrog · Tue Apr 12, 2005 @ 11:15pm · 1 Comments |