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"and I can't stand the pain and I can't make it go away....how could this happen to me...I've made my mistakes..got nowhere to run...I'm sick of this life I just wanna scream! how could this happen to me?" I can't take it! I need him! I NEED HIM! I'll never have him, I'm not good enough...he's too good for me. I love him I thought he loved me too...but if he's torturing me like this I guess not. He doesn't love me..I thought I found the right guy...I guess I don't know. I still love him. He means the world to me and always will. I don't mean the same to him but I wish I did. We could be together forever. I stay awake at night thinking about him I cry and cry and cry...always wondering why I gave him up for a b***h like her. He was always there for me but not anymore.....how can you make someone feel better when they're the one you hurt? I don't know. I hurt him and now he's hurting me only it's different. I will hurt myself, maybe permanently....please don't send me a comment saying how stupid I am because I don't care. I know I'm stupid for letting him go. I shouldn't have. I miss you Ike. I love you with all my heart and I will never forget you. I hope you read this. I hope you read and cry like I do everytime I read yours. I love you forever and always. But you don't love me.

Posted by: his girl his baby Fri Jun 08, 2007 @ 01:06am

~I love you more than you will ever know.~
-chelsea[megatron]

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Commented on: Fri Jun 08, 2007 @ 04:05am


	Hold on sweetheart.... I'm not even trying to hurt you..... I love you... If you do anything to hurt yourself then I'm going to me mad at you. I said I love you. Then you said "I love you too"... I told you that I'm sorry. Yes. I want to be with you. I thought you understand.... I miss you sooo much. I'm afraid now. Afraid that I wouldn't be able to see you. If you do anything to hurt yourself "permanently" I will find you after I died, and I will hit you. You're great, Wonderful, and just ******** amazing. I'm not even trying to torturing you. I'm sorry if you think I did. You means everything to me, The same Chelsea I fell in love with. I am here for you. "Forever and always". And yes, I am crying... Please don't hurt yourself. Ok.... The last message I sent you was "I did. I love you Chelsea"... I guessed you understand that wrong.... I was hoping to come home from the movies and finally have everything back to normal. You and me, together...But then I saw this.. I'M SORRY! I didn't mean to make you think that I don't want you. I want you, so very bad.... I swear... if you killed yourself, I'm going to slowly die. I'll stop everything. Eating, sleeping.... until I die. You're the only person I cared this much about......I'm crazy about you...... If only I didn't went to the movies...I would be able to explain to you... I want you back Chelsea... I want to hold you again. Like I always used to do.... I'm scared. I can't sleep anymore.... It's 10 pm. I lost my cell phone for 3 days now.. I want to call you. I want to tell you that everything is ok.... but couldn't I'll stay up. I'll wait until you get on. I won't sleep until you get on...... I love you Chelsea "forever and always"

Commented on: Fri Jun 08, 2007 @ 07:54am


	</3 Its ok he means more to you then me i understand.....

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