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Day One: I love myself today, not like yesterday! |
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I almost did the most hurtful thing I could ever do to the one that I love the most....I was so distraught by so many little things, by, which of course, my own mind blew out of proportion, that I actually planned and was about to commit my own Su!cide. Needless to say, the two-hour long walk with my school books in my backpack made me think otherwise, told me I had more to live by, that, and Hamlet's "To be, or not to be...that Is the question"...and damn is it ever a question!
It took me until the realization of how catastrophic this idea would be to my beloved wife, Aria, and to my family, to actually change my mind. My little cousin thinks that I am le awesome, and am his role model...me, the guy who wanted to kill himself, and almost did. My wife, Aria, whom I love and cherish than anything in the known world, would survive, if only for a short time, without me...I couldn't bear it. That thought was so appaling, leaving my wife alone and being a bad example for my impressionable young cousin literally smacked me in the face with my own stupidity.
Needless to say, I thanked my lucky stars (which were still shining when I took my walk) and chided myself for even thinking of such a foolish act. I will pay for it, in the end of it all, but at least that end, for me at least, has been prolonged, because there is nothing I would rather do than become a husband, in real life, to Aria, and for us to live together, have children, and I cherish the thought of us being together until our days are up.
Thats my first day...hopefully tomorrow will be less hectic! razz
Gwydion Draonacu · Thu Oct 14, 2004 @ 07:56am · 1 Comments |
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