It goes well. I woke up this morning to find that I had a severe case of dread, and all throughout the day I have been recieving nagging doubts and gut feelings that something is going wrong, and I have no idea as to what, or to whom.
I am getting angry for some reason, punching things, whereas I am usually quite a jaunty individual. Aria is distressed, and has gone home as per her class schedule, and here I sit, in class, trying to stay sane and in control of my senses.
I am going to snap, for no apparent reason. I'm just going to snap.
Red blurs my vision. I think myself over-dramatic. Stupidity to be so angry at nothing. Yet here I sit, a testament to such. How will I keep myself under control? Mental domination and willpower, something I have in reserves for a day such as this. Am now glad for such reserves.
I am now seeing stars...weird, as to I havent done anything physical today yet...they pass, a fleeting thing supposedly. What is wrong? I cannot tell, all I can do is wait for the inevitable, with hands at the ready, my axes in them in my mind, defender of my sanity and my soul.
What dark creature looms from the pit? 'Tis said that if you stare into the Abyss, the Abyss stares also at you...does this quote pertain to my own life, have I oft stared to the Abyss in search of salvation?
I am speaking crazy-like. Please disregard any and all of this...I am fine.
Really.
Gwydion Draonacu · Mon Feb 14, 2005 @ 06:14pm · 1 Comments |