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well, just got yelled at...again...and my librarian thought I'd get in trouble for just sneaking out of the house cause my dad wont let me volunteer Thursday when they really need me...as you've probably guess, he hates my guts, royally!
Been a long time since I posted, I know. And for anyone who actually cares, I'm sorry. been busy. My b-day was June 11th, my fiance left for AIT the 13th (AIT is a type of ARMY training) And I've been getting yelled the **** out of...If that doesnt make sense to you, I understand...I never make sense.
Well, on a lighter note, my SR-71 fandom is in OVERDRIVE!!! I've learned they released a third CD in 2004 and am trying to work to get it, since I cant even use my own b-day money for it. If you're wondering, no, I dont have a job yet. My moms getting surgery, and until she heals I cant work. But after that I get to work at...dun dun dun...A&W. Not the most glorous, but it'll work to pay for my family. We need glasses, my little sister needs night school/summer school, we need to pay my fathers loan to my grandmother, windows, house repairs, all cause my dad thinks its ok to spend all the money on chips, ice cream, pop and star treak...I mean, really! STUPID!!! He hates me, I'll hate him back! But yeah, I'm gonna be working my a** off to make up for his slack, and I'm only 16. BARELY! Most people I know my age get all the clothes, CD's and DVD's they want, while I'm stuck with the short end of the stick. Dont get me wrong, I have three CD's and a 20 year old CD played, clothes and food (Even though sometimes I have to go a day or two without eating...thanks dad) and cable, and right now we have gas, electricity, internet and cable...But it may be shut off soon...again...and we need to pay tickets my dad has stacked up...and the house is being threatened to be taken away for the third time since last year... Well, I cant complain. I get manga every few months, sometimes one EVERY month!!! And I'm supposed to get a new CD from my fiance when he comes back in late Augest or September...and hell, as long as my dad doesnt know I'm engaged, its all good! He's here right now, but not intrested on the internet unless its porn, star treck, or porn...He's even got serveral play boys stashed under his bed...he's a subscriber or soemthing, because I've been finding those things since I was eight! PATHETIC!!! But hell, I got my friends on Gaia, my fiance and my suckish life, so the show must go on...
Besides, if I need help going to sleep, SR-71 is by my side, singing me the songs that tell me life is worth it...
Oi, also, good news! Its been almost four months, maybe less, since the last time I cut myself! I'm very proud!
Well, anyways, I'm here, not there, I'm living, not dead, and thats all that matters!
ima luver luvs you! Keep your show going too! Suicide is not the answer, trust me, I know!