Well, I guess the best way to start this would have to be why. I decided while writting my story that I needed to release some of the built up pain. And what better way to do so then to talk about it.
I first wanted to say how much I love Armadox. He's the best friend I could have ever asked for. He always knows what to say when my little emotional spasm hit. I wouldn't have been able to fully pull myself out of the pit of pain i had dug for myself after Gori left me had it not been for him. Armadox, i truly wish all the best for you.
So now to the problem. It has come to my attention that no matter how my Amadox pulls me back up I end up sinking further into my pit of dispair. It seems that Gori ment alot more then I ever wanted to tell myself. If I could figure out what I did wrong i would surly go back and fix it in a heartbeat. But, alas, I can not change the past. With ever sut of depression I fall into it feels harder and harder to pull myself back up, even with armadox's help. At first I wanted to fly out there and get him back. Silly on my part I know. But bloody hell what was I to do? I couldn't understand it. literally one minute he was telling me how much he loved then 10 minutes later suggesting we split up.
I won't deny the fact that i cried... for days. even tried to talk him out of it. (Sounds kind of like I was in love or something heh.) But nothing worked. I couldn't talk to him at all. I found myself in tears every time I tried. Then he just left. i was fine for a while. But my pain is back with avengnce.
I'm sorry Armadox...
I'm not talking to anyone for a while. I think, this time i'll just let the damn pain run it's course and see what happens.
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