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Chickens!

The change in our beloved chickens is unbelivable, they stay out nearly all the time now and have even started experimenting with new food. While mums a bit annoyed that they've dug the garden up dad loves the entertainment when they fight over cabbage leaves and square up to each other.

Other news

I'm currently stitched up, had a minor operation this morning and its just a bit sore. Thats not what hurts the most though, right now just being me actually hurts, being Helen, Jimmi_N, Noir, the same person under all those different names really sucks. I'm stuck in this hell hole of a town where i am totally alone, lets see who do i actually have here? Certainly not any of my college friends, they're all working or with their brand new friends that they made at university, miles away, Mike? Sure he's here but hes working in the week which is good for him but doesnt make me feel any better. Last year we filled a whole photo album with pictures of us in summer, this year? Not one. The only friend i have here is Nod, and hes not even MY friend, he's mikes. I've been stuck in the same two shitty jobs i've had since uni, which have so far havent funded my year at uni what so ever, looks like i'm going to do without so much next year while everyone else has a brilliant time. My old friend Paula (also my manager) has suddenly turned on me and i've a meeting with her on saturday to which i can see myself bursting into tears, why because im not strong enough. When i think about it i dont have enough of anything to become anything, i'm scared of everything, im not strong enough to do anything, im not popular enough, not pretty enough, not smart enough, not funny enough, not fortunate enough. Im just not enough.