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Mood - Sad/Alone emo

At the moment I am feeling the most alone I have ever felt before. Started today after I went to see a movie in the theater again(Watche Transformers again). Well later on in the day I stopped off at a mall which had a Denny's in the parking lot. I roamed around the mall, checking out game stores and such since I didnt feel like returning to my uncle's till later. Thats when I decided I'll go to Denny's for dinner.

Well, when I got there everything was going all right. I ordered a meal with shrimp and french fries and applesauce. After they delivered the order to my table and I began to eat. Well, during eating my meal I look up to the other side of the booth I was sitting at and stared at the vacant seat in front of me. Thats when it hit me how alone I really was.

My mother and I used to go to Denny's alot, but because of recent problems I am stuck living at my uncles trying to support myself. But after seeing that vacant seat, I just felt so empty inside. Sure, I am with my uncle but still... I am not connected to him since my grandmother's death, and because of that, I dont think I have a right to call him family or something.

I just feel so alone now, even with other people. No one to talk to. No one to relate too at all either. I just feel so lost and alone now and I dont know how I am ever going to feel alright again. Just feels hopeless.