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have you everexperienced extream hate,
like that time that kid cheap shotted you in the face then ran away,
or that tme that you were dumped by your date,
this feeling is not one by itself,

it is a mixture of sorrow anger and guilt,
have you ever blamed your self for what had happened,
almost to the brink of suicide,
that verge where u cant decide,
should i do it should i kill myself....
its not like ihave anyreason to live,
i dont contribute i have nothing to give,

I just want to feel for only once in my life....
that happiness inside,
but dont pity me...please,
that hate sets my soul on fire,
it helps me sometimes..only a little...,

it makes me experince things that some of you will never know,
it makes me feel like im real....without hate id have emotions,
i have no reason to go on living,
so far the reason im living is for that one girl who to everything i hae givin.


..........from real lfe experiences.........................................................................