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I don't know what to do aside to listen to my music and study hard, I just recently fell in love with someone from a different state, and when I finally was able to fly down to her state and visit her - her parents cut us off because they thought my intentions were not pure, I got to meet her and she was amazing just like I had imagined she would be, but ever since that day we haven't talked and I've been wondering/worrying about her like crazy. I don't know if she's alright, what she thinks of me, what she thinks of us - vaguely I don't know s**t, and it's tearing what's left of my heart to pieces, I've never loved someone like this before. This isn't a cry for help, it's just a lament of a anger and sadness, one that doesn't have to be heard - only one of many things that need to be freed from my black soul. I pray that she's alright (and I never pray), that she gets in touch with me soon, and that she still loves me - lol, I really do love her to bits, don't I? You have no ******** idea.

Don't pity me, join me instead:

Old Man's Child - Soul Possessed

Transformed into the night
I'm at one with the dark,
I have life within my strength
Yet it feels like I'm dead.

I feel hate.

Born as a man, raised as a demon
Only death will do us apart,
the beast in my innerself,
awakes...

A lord from within,
a demon inside.
Together as one
we will grow strong.

We fell hate.

The wrath I feel inside
is like the devil himself,
this feeling I have learned to love
has corrupted my soul.

A lord from within,
a demon inside.
Together as one
we will grow strong.

Vince