Mood: Terrified Listening to: "When You're Gone" by Avril I am so scared right now it is unreal. Most of you know I have this certain condition, and that condition leads to the possibility of me not being able to have kids. Everytime I see a baby I start crying. Am I going insane? I know it may not seem like a big deal to many of my friends but I am terrified.
Then my mom just recently found out that I might not be a strong believer in God as she thought I might be. So she is bitching about that. Many of my friends know that my mom and dad got divorced when I was 7, and now he is married to the worst thing possible. Many don't know that my mom has had 2 boyfriends that beat on her and hurt her real bad. This is where all my trust issues and second guessing myself comes in.
Many don't know that I am a very sensitve girl. Like uber bad. If I don't tell you goodbye I start freaking out. (That story is for another journal entry.) To add on top of all this stressful s**t my gramps isn't doing so good.
I repeat I AM TERRIFIED!!!
Finally there is this whole 'finding someone to love me' issue. *rolls eyes* I don't even know why I get myself caught in that crap. It just makes my face break out. xD I need someone to realize that I am fun, loving, sensitive, and smart. (Even though I'm a little slow at times.)
LOVE ME DAMN IT!!!
Well I guess I feel better now. *sighs* I am giving myself a headache with all this crying anywho.
LOVES YOU ALL!
-NinjaBunnyQueen- · Thu Sep 06, 2007 @ 01:47am · 0 Comments |