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Eh, I dunno why, but for some reason... I'm upset.

My day was great. I had one of my favorite meals for lunch, and I found my CD i've been looking for.

Yet, something inside me is making me sad...... v.v;;

Maybe it's because my friend Sarah Davis and my friend Julia call me fat all the time... Maybe it's becuase i've been listeningt o Creed and Evanessance again..... sweatdrop

Maybe it's because everyone I know has had at least one person that thought that they were pretty.... I dunno... I'm just probably tired and I just need some sleep or something. sweatdrop

But still, there are only two guys that ever called me pretty.

1) My friend Niyo, but i'm sure he was just joking..... cry

2) My friend's friend, Banier, from England, but I know he wasn't telling the truth. he was just trying to make me feel better. cry

And I don't know why, but I just want to feel loved. I'm always hearing about my friend's Boyfriend, and how many guys like another one of my friends, and how great at everything she is, or how perfect he is.....

It
Drives
Me
Crazy...... stressed

I'm always hearing about love and such, but guess what? NO ONE KNOWS WHAT LOVE IS! I'm tried and worn out of this love s**t.

I'm tried, and fed up of all of this affection. I just HATE it. Whern I see a couple in the mall kissing, i have the urge to go up and spill somethiong over their heads.... evil

And don't say "Oh, you're just upset." or "your going through a stage" or "Hey, you won't say that when you are really in love..." cause guess what? I AM upset, I am NOT just going through a stage, and you know the ******** what? I AM NEVER GOING TO FALL IN LOVE. LOVE is NOTHING. If I can;t even get the guys that I hang out with, or the nerdiest guy to think i'm even a tiny bit pretty, I HAVE NO CHANCE. As long as I'm myself, NO ONE will think I'm pretty, NO ONE will think i'm girlfriend material..... sad

NEVER.