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So, life… I don’t have much of one. All my friends left for college and I’m left here. I live in a “one-horse town” kind of place. My closest friend is 30 min away and is still in high school and stopped hanging out with because he got a girl friend and I guess is worried what she will think of our friendship or something. I’m really happy for him because he deserves it but I just wish he hadn’t pulled away so much from me. I kind of understand that I’m not in school anymore so I wouldn’t see him as much anyway but I have no one. My two friends that are still in the state that were really close to me one is basically in North Carolina and the other is in the National Guard so I can’t really see either of them. I just feel so alone. I do nothing but go to work, come home and wait for my boyfriend to call me. He’s in Michigan, 800 miles away. I just want someone to talk to, face-to-face, someone to hug or kiss, someone REAL. But things will get better soon. I’m moving to Michigan. No one can stop me, and if they try I may just fall apart. I’ve got three more months living with someone I can’t stand so hopefully I won’t kill anyone before December. I want to be happy. I haven’t been happy except for once in my life. This past summer. I went to Michigan to see my boyfriend. I didn’t have to worry about what I said because I might say something intelligent that someone else didn’t think of and get this “you’re a dumb@$$” look. I wasn’t made to feel like I wasn’t part of the family. I’m not even part of his family and I felt more a part of it than I do my own family. I’ve never really written in a journal but I think this might help me overcome the obstacles in my life until I can leave. To anyone who reads this, I hope you have a better life.
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