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I lay awake for hours wondering......
why am i here
so far it seems getting hurt is my only reason......
i pick up my blade knowing im unable to fight it anymore....
As i hold the cold metal to my skin i feel something.....
holding me.....its him
i push away not wanting to feel that pain again....
he pulls me closer and whispers "i love you" in my ear....
but ive heard those words before......lies.....alll of them...
I look away but he brings me back twords him......
all my feelings of lonliness disapearing...
i realize i dont have to fight it alone anymore.....
i have something to live for.....
someone i can love and who loves me back..........
somone who after the worst heartbreak in my life......
can heal me just by smiling......thank you........
u gave me something to live for....