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I suppose it is true that time heals all wounds. Er.. Maybe not *all* of them.. Regardless.. Over the past few months, things have changed as they always do, and I've come to accept many of the aspects of my life that I cannot necessarily do anything about at this point. I'm just so exhausted now, though. No matter how many things I attempt to fix, the feelings I try to mend, or finally when something appears to be going right, within an instant of feeling some sort of sense of relief, a new event occurs, another conflict. This heavy cycle of life is really irritating at times. I just want to take that moment to reflect. But I always have my thought-provoking moments, although I have no one to share them with anymore. I always have my dreams, and I will always have the Lord and Lady. Why do I still feel so empty? It's been like this since August. Since that night when I found out about Jon. Then, I feel all better and such when I think about how pleasant he might feel now. His leaving really made the world feel so empty, though. Everything and everyone feels so distant. I don't really feel like I care about much anymore. Of corpse, my Brandon. I love him dearly. *sigh* I dunno what I'm saying right now. Trying to express these feelings.. it's not just working out the way I'd hoped it to.