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I felt sad, sad to be with myself alone. I didn’t trust myself alone. If I could be with the devil, I would choose that over this. Anything would be grater then this. Then I sore the face I dreaded, and it tears me, it tears me up. My head fell in shame to see that face, to even be near the face let alone see it was bad enough. I never thought I would hold my breath so I could keep the secret inside me, then I started to turn blue with gilt when I didn’t tell the face. Then when I did tell it, I ran in distress, to try to hide. Then when I did hide, I got pulled out of the hidden place and pushed down on the floor. Cold, it was cold, I was, I was heaving on the floor, gasping for breath, I was gasping for breath. I was the person I wanted to be, or I was the person I was trying to be. I opened my eyes, only to see the light. I screamed in pain, I was trapped, alone. “I am sick to say, you’re a --” I kept on hearing, never the end word though; I spun around to see who said that. If I herd that then someone else must have been with me. I heaved myself up and ran, ran forever! I couldn’t stop, not now, so, so very, very close! I wouldn’t stop! My lungs where bursting, but I kept going, wouldn’t stop! Oh no! I wouldn’t stop no matter what!!
Then I came face to face with that face. I feel to the ground, I thought I would keep on falling but I didn’t… the face had hands, and the hands grabbed me. I looked up into the face, it smiled at me. I looked away in discus. I pushed the hands away, knowing that my family would probably go insane. Maybe they would do what I just did… maybe they would jump as well, then push away your only hope at life then got into the dusk darkness, and be lost for ever. I thought it would be better then being alive, but when I pushed the hand away, I realised the only one thing that could happen now. I was going to be alone for the rest of my life, never to see another soul but mine from now on.