Ahhhh. I wanna cry, but I'm too angry to cry. mad
Heres What Happened:
My friend Ashlee and my other friend Paul were going out, and had been for a while...like a couple months I think.
Any ways, he broke up with her about a week and a half ago, and I began to kind of like him. We were suddenly hanging out alot together, and rumors were spreading around our friends that we were going out.
Weird thing was, neither me, Ashlee, or Paul really cared.
Ashlee asked me if I liked him...and I said Kinda. I like to hang out with him. You know? And she was all like telling me that we should go out...but I didnt know...I didnt even think that I liked him that much.
And...I guess I still dont really know...I may just like him as a really close friend.
But, anyways.
She TOLD him. I cannot believe she told him, because she PROMISED she wouldnt.
Then, he called me to ask if it was true.
The first thing I asked was Well if I did would you care? He said no, thank god. If he would have said yes I would have died. Anyways I told him yeah, a little. That I liked hanging out with him. He kinda started rambling about how Ashlee had been acting all weird and that he didnt know, but she seemed almost jealous.
Of course I said that there was no ******** reason to be jealous because we werent going out and it wasnt like we were really going to.
Then I asked him when she told him.
He said she had told him during school, and that as soon as she told him she asked if he liked me.
He said that he had told her that he didnt know.
Later when I talked to her, she said that he had said that he guessed that he did like me.
gonk
So, naturally, I freaked.
Sorta.
I called my best friend, spilled my guts, and cried crazilly. I didnt know what the ******** was happening, and I knew that Ashlee was mad at me for something, but she wouldnt say.
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Paul, Ashlee, (who were still friends) me and my friend Colleen went to the beach together a couple nights ago.
We had a bonfire, and went swimming - oddly, the water was warm at ten at night.
Anyways, Colleen, who had never met Paul, began flirting wildly. Paul is an absolute dumbass, so he didnt know it, but I could tell that 'Lena' (Colleen) was getting more and more into it, even like touching him. It made me mad.
I let her go on until around midnight, when she, Paul and I went for a walk (Ashlee was by the bonfire with her mom and cousins). Then I asked her if she liked him, and she said kinda, and I told her that I liked him and that her obnoxoius flirting was driving me MAD.
She said she didnt like him that much, and that because she loves me so much she'd stop...but thats not what I had really intended...well, yeah, it was, but I didnt want her to feel like she was doing it because I felt like Paul was "my territory." So, we kept walking.
Ashlee met with us a little while later.
All three of us girls were in a tiff, just kinds sitting by ourselves. Paul was walking down the beach to where the moon was shining on the water.
It was weird. Ashlee was sitting closest to the ocean, and twenty feet behind her Lena was sitting on a sand hill, and then twenty feet behind HER I was laying down in a ditch made by beach cruiser tracks.
Paul was all confused when he came back.
First, he stood by Ashlee, I couldnt hear what they were talking about, but he was like kicking the sand around.
Then he talked to Lena real fast, and then he came and sat down by me.
He told me that he thought Ashlee was mad at him.
I told him that she was probobly just weirded out...she knew that Lena liked him.
So thats how he found out about Lena. I dont think that she knows he knows, but he knows because I told him, which I feel kinda bad about.
ANYWAYS, Paul and I sat and talked for a long time. Mostly about Ashlee, but whatever. Then he started saying how he had never had a girl tell him that they liked him, that I was like the first. So I said Paul, I. Like. You. And whatever, but, like get over it. And he laughed...and said that he kinda liked me too. That made me feel weird...
It wasnt like a happy feeling.
I've never had a guy tell me to my face that he liked me either (except for kindergarten, but, come on.) I dont think I knew how to react.
I was kind of mad. Yeah. I was angry that he liked me. But I dont know why...
But thats the only way that I can describe it. My face got all scrunched up like it does when I get mad, and I felt all bitchy.
I tried not to be bitchy with Paul.
I kinda liked that he was talking to ME.
When it was time to go home Ashlee's mom dropped me, Paul, and Colleen off at my house (Paul lives down the street from me and Lena was spending the night). We all sat down and just talked for about half an hour, then he went home around one.
-
Today Colleen, Paul and I went to the beach again.
Yeah.
Paul has been calling me alot. Its weird. We mostly make plans for going to the beach or the park or we talk about Ashlee.
It kinda sucks.
Anyways, at the beach Lena and Paul were buddy-buddy. Lena's twin brother Mick had come along, and I hate him.
But, he has like ADD, ADHD, bipolar, and other s**t. He's annoying.
But, I was ******** stuck with him. I kept giving Lena looks, but she'd just smile, like saying Its okay. And she never layed off.
It bothered me again.
Then, I took a picture of myself on Paul's phone...and she deleted it.
Ick. I didnt really want that pic on his phone, but it made me mad that SHE deleted it.
It was a good picture. mad
-
Blah Blah, nothing much more happened until Colleen and Paul went home, and after I had taken a shower.
Then, Paul called me and asked for Lena's last name...he wanted to see her picture in the yearbook.
That was today. gonk
AND AND AND, just a couple minutes ago I was talking to Ashlee on AOL messenger, and she said that she wants to go with me on a bike ride on Sunday, because she has to tell me some things that she hasnt been honest about, and...
ITS ABOUT PAUL.
Hogawd, who'da guessed?
stressed
AHHHHHHH.
Heres What Happened:
My friend Ashlee and my other friend Paul were going out, and had been for a while...like a couple months I think.
Any ways, he broke up with her about a week and a half ago, and I began to kind of like him. We were suddenly hanging out alot together, and rumors were spreading around our friends that we were going out.
Weird thing was, neither me, Ashlee, or Paul really cared.
Ashlee asked me if I liked him...and I said Kinda. I like to hang out with him. You know? And she was all like telling me that we should go out...but I didnt know...I didnt even think that I liked him that much.
And...I guess I still dont really know...I may just like him as a really close friend.
But, anyways.
She TOLD him. I cannot believe she told him, because she PROMISED she wouldnt.
Then, he called me to ask if it was true.
The first thing I asked was Well if I did would you care? He said no, thank god. If he would have said yes I would have died. Anyways I told him yeah, a little. That I liked hanging out with him. He kinda started rambling about how Ashlee had been acting all weird and that he didnt know, but she seemed almost jealous.
Of course I said that there was no ******** reason to be jealous because we werent going out and it wasnt like we were really going to.
Then I asked him when she told him.
He said she had told him during school, and that as soon as she told him she asked if he liked me.
He said that he had told her that he didnt know.
Later when I talked to her, she said that he had said that he guessed that he did like me.
gonk
So, naturally, I freaked.
Sorta.
I called my best friend, spilled my guts, and cried crazilly. I didnt know what the ******** was happening, and I knew that Ashlee was mad at me for something, but she wouldnt say.
-
Paul, Ashlee, (who were still friends) me and my friend Colleen went to the beach together a couple nights ago.
We had a bonfire, and went swimming - oddly, the water was warm at ten at night.
Anyways, Colleen, who had never met Paul, began flirting wildly. Paul is an absolute dumbass, so he didnt know it, but I could tell that 'Lena' (Colleen) was getting more and more into it, even like touching him. It made me mad.
I let her go on until around midnight, when she, Paul and I went for a walk (Ashlee was by the bonfire with her mom and cousins). Then I asked her if she liked him, and she said kinda, and I told her that I liked him and that her obnoxoius flirting was driving me MAD.
She said she didnt like him that much, and that because she loves me so much she'd stop...but thats not what I had really intended...well, yeah, it was, but I didnt want her to feel like she was doing it because I felt like Paul was "my territory." So, we kept walking.
Ashlee met with us a little while later.
All three of us girls were in a tiff, just kinds sitting by ourselves. Paul was walking down the beach to where the moon was shining on the water.
It was weird. Ashlee was sitting closest to the ocean, and twenty feet behind her Lena was sitting on a sand hill, and then twenty feet behind HER I was laying down in a ditch made by beach cruiser tracks.
Paul was all confused when he came back.
First, he stood by Ashlee, I couldnt hear what they were talking about, but he was like kicking the sand around.
Then he talked to Lena real fast, and then he came and sat down by me.
He told me that he thought Ashlee was mad at him.
I told him that she was probobly just weirded out...she knew that Lena liked him.
So thats how he found out about Lena. I dont think that she knows he knows, but he knows because I told him, which I feel kinda bad about.
ANYWAYS, Paul and I sat and talked for a long time. Mostly about Ashlee, but whatever. Then he started saying how he had never had a girl tell him that they liked him, that I was like the first. So I said Paul, I. Like. You. And whatever, but, like get over it. And he laughed...and said that he kinda liked me too. That made me feel weird...
It wasnt like a happy feeling.
I've never had a guy tell me to my face that he liked me either (except for kindergarten, but, come on.) I dont think I knew how to react.
I was kind of mad. Yeah. I was angry that he liked me. But I dont know why...
But thats the only way that I can describe it. My face got all scrunched up like it does when I get mad, and I felt all bitchy.
I tried not to be bitchy with Paul.
I kinda liked that he was talking to ME.
When it was time to go home Ashlee's mom dropped me, Paul, and Colleen off at my house (Paul lives down the street from me and Lena was spending the night). We all sat down and just talked for about half an hour, then he went home around one.
-
Today Colleen, Paul and I went to the beach again.
Yeah.
Paul has been calling me alot. Its weird. We mostly make plans for going to the beach or the park or we talk about Ashlee.
It kinda sucks.
Anyways, at the beach Lena and Paul were buddy-buddy. Lena's twin brother Mick had come along, and I hate him.
But, he has like ADD, ADHD, bipolar, and other s**t. He's annoying.
But, I was ******** stuck with him. I kept giving Lena looks, but she'd just smile, like saying Its okay. And she never layed off.
It bothered me again.
Then, I took a picture of myself on Paul's phone...and she deleted it.
Ick. I didnt really want that pic on his phone, but it made me mad that SHE deleted it.
It was a good picture. mad
-
Blah Blah, nothing much more happened until Colleen and Paul went home, and after I had taken a shower.
Then, Paul called me and asked for Lena's last name...he wanted to see her picture in the yearbook.
That was today. gonk
AND AND AND, just a couple minutes ago I was talking to Ashlee on AOL messenger, and she said that she wants to go with me on a bike ride on Sunday, because she has to tell me some things that she hasnt been honest about, and...
ITS ABOUT PAUL.
Hogawd, who'da guessed?
stressed
AHHHHHHH.
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