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Chapter 4 (guess what? more) |
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Chapter 4 Laughter, the sound of blasting rock music, and the feel of bodies bumping into one another filled the restaraunt. The last dance of the year, the big one, the most formal out of them all. I twirled around in my little black dress, my grandmother's necklace flying around my neck. Next to me was Shana, Steph, then Dan. We had formed our own little circle, separated from the others in our group. Mike, Oscar, and Sean came over as the girls walked away and a grundge song blasted through the room. Shana's sparkles still hung in the air from her long, formal, light blue dress and Steph's teal one was easy to spot. Dan turned to the guys and gave them a look, then turned to me. There was no pain in his eyes, none at all, no hatred or shame, just a fire I'd learned to love. Everyone in our small circle started jumping, quickly and high, singing along with the music. By the time the song's last notes fated it was only me and Dan still danceing, and we both collapsed, then chugged down a glass of soda. "Oh my god, that was so fun!" I was smileing, knowing for a fact my face was bright red. "Yea, it was." Dan smiled at Shana as she came over. "Great, I can't see" He removed his glasses and wiped a clean napkin over his face while I was doing the same. Sweat was pouring down both our faces, and for once he flashed me a grin. The whole group was around the table, all laughing. Shana was quickly caught up in Dan's arms and I moved away a bit. This wasn't my place. All of a sudden the Graduation Song started playing, and most of the group got back onto the dance floor. Dan stood there, holding Shana close, kissing her softly. She gave me a look, and I could tell she could see the tears in the corners of my eyes. I saw the look, I know. She had known for a while I cared about Dan. All of a sudden I was in his arms, hugging him tightly. He had scooped me up, one arm around Shana, the other around me. I found myself leaning against his strong chest for support, takeing in his scent, didn't mind the sweat that covered his body. He let me hug him, and he hugged back. I feared that all my feelings would pour through in that one hug, but I didn't let go, I couldn't. "We will still be Friends forever" Our group mouthed the last words to the song, knowing it was true. We would be friends forever, through the next few days, through the next few years, and beyond. I relished every second I spent in Dan's arms, and felt myself starting to let go. I looked over at Shana, and saw her doing the same. No, not yet my friend. We must wait. The time must be perfect. She glanced over at me and nodded. Alright, have it your way. The dance was over and I watched as my friends gradually separated, heading home. At last it was just me and Dan. I watched my dad pull up and silently thanked whoever ran the universe that he was nice and late. We hugged one last time, my arms looped around his neck. I mouthed the words "Thank you", then pulled away and walked to my car, calling back to Dan. "See you tomorrow!" He smiled and waved, then walked away with his mom. "Or tonight." I thought as I sat down next to my dad. "So, who was that? Was that Matt?" The refrence to my friend made me gag. "Ok...was it Dan?" I smiled and sighted, watching as the straps of my dress fell down my shoulders. "Yea, that was Dan." I said in a near whisper. "That was Dan." I was being pulled down, deeper and deeper into the eternally dark lake. How did I get here this time? The surface became farther and farther away as I continued to sink, wanting to scream but knowing it was impossible. My arms felt like sledgehammers, my legs like lead weights, fighting was useless. Whatever had happened to me had definetly taken its tole. As I sunk deeper I saw him, still as stone, already at the bottom. His eyes were closed and his limbs hung limp as I finally was dragged beside him. I tried to move to him, go to him somehow, but I couldn't. I was too weak..too pathetic..how could I reach him in this condition? Besides, he was gone already, it was obvious. "That's right, give up on him. Just like you have before, give up on everything, young one. Give up on the world and yourself, give up on him." That voice..it was familiar and shot chills up and down my spine. This voice wanted nothing more than for me to die, and it had succeeded. My eyes were too heavy to keep open, they finally closed and I ended up doing exactly what the voice told me to do. I gave up.
AshesToEmbers · Tue Jul 05, 2005 @ 03:16am · 0 Comments |
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