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I wish I knew.
I hoped I knew.
I always wonder, what I would be.
It hurts to know you don’t think about me, the way I somehow wished.
I wish you could just tell me that you want her.
Instead I feel horrible.
Tears?
No, thank you.
Hold me?
No, It's okay, I think.
The words I've always wanted to say always seem to stay stuck in my mind but don't come out.
Shadows run around the room.
Yes, I sang the song.
Yes, I waited.
I stay up and wait and hope to see you.
Lies.
Lies.
Lies.
Lies.
I look up to see the night sky, with stupid tears falling down.
Now I know that waiting isn't really helping.
But ill only wait if you want me too.
Girls.
Boys.
Animals.
Pain.
Blood.
First word, good night.
Fellow boy, so perfect but so broken.
Beautiful girl, so confused and so lost.
Baby marry me.
What's your name?
Please know ill stay right beside you.
I just don't want to face death yet again.
Death is the monster who took my father away..
Me crying?
Yes, maybe, but not today.
Run.
Run.
Run.
Run.
Cry.
My plan isn't going too well.
..isn't it?
Yes, ill probably lose you anyway.
I will fall apart even more.
Most probably die.
Me depressed?
Maybe, you'll never know ********.
Me emo?
******** you hoe.

crying