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i'm sad again as ususal. i guess i should have seen this coming. every relationship ii've had in the past 2 years i've ruined. i broke up with my bf the other day and i havent stopped cryin all weekend. i felt as if i had no other choice. he wouldnt talk to me. the only words he said to me in person were "i'll c you later, i've gotta get going, and go on aim." i need a relationship where we can actually talk to each other. i really did like him. A LOT. but as this persisted a grew farther and farther away from him. i had a better relationship from 2 of my friends that like me. i'm thinking of going out with one of them...just not right away. i need time to myself for a while. i just hope that him and i can still be friends. and that people dont hate me for doing what i felt i had to do for myself. havent i suffered enough pain crying gonk gonk crying