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When I want to vent something, but have no idea where to put it, it'll go here.
I feel nauseous.
Today started out as such a wonderful day. School was easy so I got to slack off and listen to music, but never can it be that simple.

my mom called my grandpa up to see how he was doing, and he's doing really badly. We knew he had cancer, but we thought he was going to get help. Now they don't want to do surgery because they don't think he'd be able to survive it, and the treatment they are using isn't making any progress whatsoever.

And if that wasn't enough, I was reading a manga and a character I liked died. Being too empathetic, and already having death on the brain, I'm sitting here in front of my computer with my left arm shaking and my head pounding.

I want to react and just be flat out upset so I get it over with, but I can't. Never can, really, so it shouldn't be that much of a shock to me. This is not fun and I want to complain to someone. Comfort'd be nice too, but I don't know who I'd ask for that.

Eh, if I find something funny to watch, maybe I'll feel better soon. . .





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    Diamonds_and_Devils
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    commentCommented on: Sat Feb 23, 2008 @ 08:59am
    Aww... That's so sad. =[
    You can complain to me if you want.

    And I know how you feel, Cassie. My grandfather died two years ago from cancer. It's hard to let go of someone that you love when they're close to death. I've been there. I just hope that your grandfather will go peacefully. That is the best way to go.

    It may seem that it's almost impossible to get over a loved one's death. But one comes to see that their loved ones are in a much better place; one without death, one without strife, one of peace. Some call it Heaven; some call it Paradise. It doesn't matter what you call it though. I know that your grandfather will be looking down upon you when he leaves this world and won't want you to be sad about his death. Just cherish the time that you have and have had with him. Hold him in your memories. Although it may seem cliché, he will live on in your memories. You will always have him with you if you keep the memories of him with you.

    And don't forget that being empathetic, even if in a large amount, is never a bad thing to be.


    commentCommented on: Tue Feb 26, 2008 @ 07:00pm
    So many stages we humans go through to grieve . . .

    Perhaps someday you'll write a book or a manga, and your loved ones - whether real or imagined - can live forever.

    PM me if you'd like.



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    EmbersAglow
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    commentCommented on: Fri Feb 29, 2008 @ 01:20am
    For some reason, this always makes me feel better.

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    And I can relate to how you feel, trust me. I have similar problems in my life. =/


    commentCommented on: Mon Jun 23, 2008 @ 07:52am
    *nods solemnly* I too know your pain, my great grandmother died of caner last summer. The pain only became real to me when I read the speech that was made at her grave.



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