I don't understand these so called friends of mine. The only one who gives a damn about me anymore is Rochelle. God, I'm so thankful to have her right now ...
... I was just pretty much uninvited to a birthday party of a friend of mine ... we've been friends for eleven years, going on twelve. I've known her almost my entire life, so it's hard for me.
She had good reasons to tell me that I couldn't come to the dinner ... but ... god, I wish I could have been there because I haven't hung out with her in ages ...
... Rochelle knew I was hurt.
*she sighs and wipes away her tears* ... She knew that as soon as I went downstairs that I was crying. She came up from behind me and hugged me ... and I just started to cry.
Soon as my dad came down, I stopped.
One thing after another, and another, and another, and another. When is the pain all going to stop?
I would be so much easier if I could just immolate or something ... wouldn't it? Maybe. Maybe not. I don't really know how that works. God, if it could heal emotional pain ...
... but I heard you have to be pretty damn strong to do it in the first place ... so who's to say I'd be able to do it? Chances are slim that I could.
*she twirls a lock of her wavy hair around her finger*
... I miss being loved. I miss being cared about. And not in the "Yeah, we're here for you cuz we're your friends. You are loved" kind of way. I mean ... being actually LOVED and actually CARED about in a stronger way ...
... *laughs as Rises From The Ashes starts to play*
... I need to learn to keep my emotions in check. Gotta learn to shrug stuff off.
That's not going to be so easy. Oh, well ... I can do anything I set my mind to ... I guess.
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Quiet is the fire, quite is the dreams,
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Quiet is the fire that sooths the moment.
Quiet is the fire it's like a snow bird in flight,
lie still, lie still and take in the moment.
For we shall remember how to dream, it's like watching a
quiet fire.
For a quiet fire is like timeless echoes in the winds.
A quiet fire can soothe a lonely soul in passing.
quiet is the fire.
A quiet fire can take you over in a moment, it's magic,
A quiet fire can burn deep with in your soul for hope,
for peace and for love.
Quiet is the fire to hear a silent whisper and think of love.
Quiet is the fire.
Quiet is the moment
Quiet is the time for laughter
Quiet is the time for hope
Quiet is the time for passion
A quite fire is like timeless echoes in the winds.
Quiet is the passions, the laughter and the tears,
Quiet is the fire that sooths the moment.
Quiet is the fire it's like a snow bird in flight,
lie still, lie still and take in the moment.
For we shall remember how to dream, it's like watching a
quiet fire.
For a quiet fire is like timeless echoes in the winds.
A quiet fire can soothe a lonely soul in passing.
quiet is the fire.
A quiet fire can take you over in a moment, it's magic,
A quiet fire can burn deep with in your soul for hope,
for peace and for love.
Quiet is the fire to hear a silent whisper and think of love.
Quiet is the fire.
Quiet is the moment
Quiet is the time for laughter
Quiet is the time for hope
Quiet is the time for passion
A quite fire is like timeless echoes in the winds.
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