Is it alright to feel this way? Is it alright to stand here and pretend? How can it be that I'm feeling so much, how can that be when I'm feeling so lost? You know how I feel and I know what you don't... I know so little, I know too much. I know a million different things and all that knowing just helps me build my fear. I'm scared, I'm finally scared, and I don't want to lose. I don't want to lose. It's not always about winning, I know, but I can't help wanting to win your heart, but how can that happen when its tearing apart? Theres nothing I can do, its all up to you. Believe me, I know the situation, I see it every time I look at my reflection. The history flashes by my eyes and hits the heart pitter pat and tares like paper. As it unravels in front of my face, the nights we'd argue(ha we had a lot of those),your hands wrapped around my neck begging me to stay and forgive u for what u did and promised not to do again. And for the things u said but,never did. But tell me, is it alright? Are we going to be alright? I tell you I'm okay, I tell you I'm great, but at the end of the day will it still remain the same? I doubt we'll last forever. It's just not meant to be. Do I see us lasting forever no, I see me moving on with another,while your still trying to change yourself into someone better. But,time will tell, you say, but the time is slipping away. The only thing I can do is sit here and wait., and I hope you're right. I hope its going to be alright. You asked me for a reason, one reason to hold on, and I found the one reason that in my heart is true..... That reason is... my love for you..........
OzandtheEnd · Sun Jan 20, 2008 @ 01:39am · 0 Comments |