Whoah! Its been a while since I've posted. Like..over a year. That's crazy! Haha. Life has been so crazy lately...
Okay, so, I'm a sophomore. Its crazy, but its already 3rd quarter. I'm doing pretty good for school, been stressed out like crazy...I'm gradually getting more involved with school. I'm in FCCLA and still doing Girl Scouts. I've hd a few boyfriends this year and am currently dating someone right now...he is amazing and knows how to treat a girl right. I have loads of fun talking to him every day.
Mentally I haven't been doing too well though. I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm not mentally disabled or anything, but I just have been...different lately. I don't want to talk to anyone, do anything, go anywhere, or anything of the sort. I've been seriously depressed, not to mention stressed from pressure of shool, family, and friends. Not to mention the stress that my health is giving me. I've been going into the doctor at least every 1-2 weeks, and finally its been 3 weeks since I last went.
I know this is a terrible thing to say, but I have been having a lot of suicidal thoughts. Don't get me wrong, I won't ever go through with it, I just...I mean life isn't as bad as it could be, I just get so down and blue and I can't help it. I really wish I could, but obviously I can't. Everyone I know notices I'm different, that I seem so down all the time...they ask me why, but I don't even know that myself!
I am totally ranting on and on about my life that isn't half as bad as some people's. So I apologize, but I just needed a place to get out my feelings. Tonight hasn't been the best...
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I like horses, writing, rollerblading, and dancing and listening to music. My journal is just going to talk about things that are happening recently with me. So, Enjoy!
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