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i wrote it on the airplane ride back from new york.

and he wants me to be angry.
he is happy for it.
and i listen to music.
he wants attention.
he asks why?
he steals from me to have power.
he doesnt love me.
he wont touch me.
i try and explain.
he wont listen.
or he doesnt care.
he thinks i cant be sad.
i dont understand.
he thinks.
hes right.
im too young.
i cant understand.
i want him to teach me.

my life is a song.
and i plug out and escape.
i watch.
i listen away.
im secretive.
but im the oppisite of hiding.
i watch, i see, i feel nothing.
i write and wait.
i wait until its too late.
untill im not here.
absent.
rows 20 and higher board now.
i listen, fooled by the noise.
it makes my life up.
i understand and you dont.
or is it the oppisite.
or maybe im always lying.
joking.
kidding.
sleeping.
dying.
i want to be saved.
helped.
excited.
loved.
killed.
born.
and its seeping into me.
eating me.
surrounding me.
killing me.
help i shout.
no one is there.
i am crazy, overdue.
speaking to my self.
sleeping.
please keep me awake.
alive.
im dying inside.
but you dont see that.
youre to selfish.
ignorant.
out to lunch.
annoying.
and beautiful.
to understand.

wish me luck.
good luck, my friend.
dont lie.
dont curse.
just, now, i really need you.
just now.
be there even if you lie.
please just love me.
want me.

sometimes i cry.
i cant live without you.
but im not dead yet.
not yet.

my whole trip was fake.
im living in a dream.
reality is behind.
in front.

i live, crying, wanting, loving, sleeping.

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Commented on: Mon Jul 11, 2005 @ 02:25am


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Commented on: Mon Jul 11, 2005 @ 03:52pm


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Commented on: Wed Jul 13, 2005 @ 08:12am


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