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I am doing all I can to handle -no- I mean control my emotions. I have a myspace blog but too many people I don't want to know are on my friends list. I feel more annomous here. Very few people know me in real life on this site, so it helps me express myself more freely.

My mom just continues to make me feel like s**t.

I told my mom a week ago that I was going out tonight. Man, right now I almost feel like I can't breathe. Like I can't move and I'm so tired.

We got into an arguement because she wanted to do something, that could have been done yesterday. She could have at least told me and maybe I could have rearraged my plans. But it's not why I'm so upset.

I received a bill. My mom hasn't been paying Sprint. I owe them about $450. I say I because it is in my name. But really she owes them. I get into it with my mom. She really pissed me off. She loves make me feel like s**t with the stuff she says. She acts like I am a selfish little brat who uses the car to go out all the time.

I'm sorry I have to be up at 5am to go to school.

I'm sorry that I don't get home earlier than 3-5.

I'm sorry that the days I work at Stop and Shop I don't get home until 10:30p.m.-11:30p.m.

I'm sorry I haven't won the lotto.

I'm sorry that I am in debt.

I'm sorry I can't help around the house more.

I'm sorry for everything....

I never asked to be born.