i never thought that not having a gf would affect me so greatly. all i want is just a gal i can trust and have some fun with. Having normal sheila friends is great but really a stronger relationship with some one is an amazing experience. the funny thing is that all the people i would think of asking are like 13/14 and i dunno if they would ever even think of saying yes. Also most of them are not single dammit...i dunno....if just aint the same. i need a darl for myself. all the people at school are retards...they dont know nothin. i tried asking a couple of sheilas this week. i am not like at the bottom of the chain at school or nothin ((you know geek - popular)) and i am about 1 level from the top. i am not ugly...lol...i mean my way of describing myself is pete wentz from fall out boy...and i dont think he is gross so basically i think i look okay ((i am not emo though...not that he is but i just dont wear eye make up or s**t)). but i asked you know "eh, i was wondrin if you sheila wanted to go to a movie or somethin some time?" and then wat was their relp? "hell no b*****d" and i was like whoa that wernet expected. i am totally depressed not that yall read my journal or nothin but i still wanted to put stuff down.
Silent Never More · Wed Feb 27, 2008 @ 12:44am · 1 Comments |