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f*ck it!

man am I pissed off at life right now. *scowls* stressed
He died..........Kurt Blake died....a few days ago, but I just got over it and felt the need to tell you guys about it because you know I need to vent and stuff and.....and.....ARGH! I get so angry when people are depressed......when my friends are depressed, I'm not pissed at them I'm pissed at the fact something made them all sad like. I wasn't close to him or anything but you know, tiny town, everybody is pretty close.....that unspoken connection........DAMNIT! I'm making myself cry. good news however; my mom isn't making me go.....you know, to the funeral. They'll, they being kids in my class, will yell at me and sh*t but frankly I don't give. I can't stand that type of things......when you think of somebody it shouldn't make you cry......it should make you smile and I figure a funeral is kind of a 'goodbye we can now live on and pretend you never existed' type of things......but they are good for some people, for closure, but nobody is gonna make me go, the church would collapse around me anyhow. but come on, how is it fair that he died?! he was an eigth grader, only 14 years old! did something stupid on the ski hill and landed himself in a coma, then went and died god damnit all!..............I'm gonna go be emo now emo