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I love you
And I guess you loved me, too
When we first were together, I thought I trusted you
Now,well... I don't know, I feel something new
I remember when we would go bowling together
Or when we took our bubble baths, and we would last forever...

Now I'm in my bed alone, just crying
Wishing I was dying
But what was it? Why didn't you ever tell me???
I thought you trusted me, because you told me that you loved me!!!
Did our love change because of trust???
Or because we never learned to trust??

One night you came, and you were acting weird
And when I asked what was wrong, you would just turn and disappear
Trust??? trust??? trust???
Question marks are the only things that come to mind

Until that night!!!
Raining, thunder, windy, it was a very ugly day
But when I got home I saw something beyond ugly
I saw you lying on the floor with blood coming down your head
And the gun you had been holding pressing down on your chest
Until I saw that note on your neck saying...

I thought I trusted you, but did you ever trust me???
Thinking is not the same as knowing...

I whispered to myself silently, saying, "Yes, I did trust you..."