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everyday starts out as a normal day. get up go to school stare at crush longinly or something go home heart crying well lately my crush has been staring back and i can't help but laugh or blush then look at my desk. now if you were my crush don't you think you would think i was a total weirdo sweatdrop redface well now i wondering what he is thinking right now the sad part is i am a total nobody and even though he is a nerd (i mean N E R D) he is a really cute nerd so i bet every girl likes him so what am i supposed to say when my friend ask me if i think hes cute and that she would totally go out with him i sitting there getting pissed and i cant say anything because i really dont want him to know i really like him then it would probably make things weirder than they already are and i know i put myself in this situation because in the begining of the year we were cool and then i went and made things all weird. THEN this girl whos my "friend" someone who i think i can trust by telling her i like him starts to like him out of nowhere yeah totally mean and now when ever he looks at me i get this weird feeling in my stomach and i start to laugh and it makes me so sad. So i tried to avoid him you know maybe that feeling will go away and then i wont have to like him so much but i have two classes with him, i always manage to bump in to him in the hallway , i am always walking home and hes there; anywhere i go he is there; i was at the grocery store and he was there so i leave and tell my mom we should come tomorrow when its less crowded so i half jog back to the car and ( i swear he saw me) his car is parked next to ours when we go to a diffrent store and go in he is there auggh eek i cant get away from him and then when he looks me in the eyes instead of blushing or looking down i get sad because he is a goal in life i will never reach he is some where where i cant reach in a untouchable place for me its like he is right there but there is a glass wall blocking and no matter how hard i try i cant knock it down or break it and i dont know if he even wants it knocked down and he probably is trying to understand because every time i see him he looks at me with pleading, confused, and i m trying to understand but i cant eyes, and it makes me so sad crying emo cry and now i ...... i am so sorry but i dont know what to do because now my whole day is revolving around trying to avoid him and i know its rude to take the long way to class and be late but thats what i have to do and maybe he will stop trying to understand and stop being quiet and stop being sad because you can see it in his eyes; his eyes and smile are incrediably lonely and sad and maybe thats why he thinks he can try to understand me but he shouldnt no one should i am an incrediabley complex person and if he just leaves me alone maybe he can get popular like he was supposed to be then that would make me happy even if it means i cant have him i dont care i would give anything to see him smile. a happy smile would make me happy too and whoever gets him is one lucky girl. crying heart emo cry thanks and comment tell me what to do please im in a rut sweatdrop thanks
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