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Today I was sitting on my couch just lounging about taking everything I had for granted. My show had ended and it was a commercial and I had grown bored so I reached behind my couch and switched on my amp and strapped on my guitar to start plucking away at the chords and notes. As I did the song Angel by Sarah McLachlan came through the T.V. speakers. I personally enjoy the song and it took my attention away from my guitar and when I looked at the screen I saw a commercial about animal abuse and how so many animals are in need of help. It spoke on how last year thousands of animals were saved due to the efforts of the orginization, ASPCA. But it also spoke on how thousands more were in need of help and how even now animals were being abused and needed our help. While watching the commercial I found myself close to tears and while they never came out I found it odd that a commercial could bring me closer to weeping than a sad movie could and I rarely ever shed tears.

After the commercial was over I found myself sitting and just staring blankly at the screen. I found it strange, this commercial was like all of the others that came on screen asking for support and how a small donation of money could help so much. But this certain one was different. Maybe it was the music that added to the effect, maybe it was the fact that I have a dog and love her dearly, or maybe it was the choice of words that the narrator chose to use. Whatever the reason I found myself thinking strongly about the subject and not just about animals. I found myself thinking about ways to help animals, children, women, the world in general. I thought back and realized how fortunate I was and how often I took advantage of everything in my life. Be it three full meals a day, or the luxury of a house and heating and air conditioning, or a full family with two loving and devoted parents and a younger sister and brother who I love dearly, or a group of friends that I can go to when I'm having trouble or feeling down, whatever the case their always their for me, or how I have wasted so much money on small pleasentries like game consols.

After thinking long and hard about the commercial and choice of song I went to my computer and started browsing certain subjects. I found myself come across the story of a little 7 year old girl and how her life had been cut short due to circumstances unavoidable. It spoke of the girls grandparents and how the event had affected their lives. The grandfather spoke of the night the girl passed away and how he was in a train station at 4 am. He heard the song Angels by Sarah McLachlen had come over the stations speakers, after his grandaughters favorite song, and how it seemed to be telling him that everything was going to be ok and how even though the angels had come down too early for his grandaughter, heaven had been granted a new angel and even though she was gone he knew that she would be smiling down upon him and watching over her family.

I found it amazing that such a small and insignificant two minute commercial with a few animals and how putting a song about angels behind it could have such a huge effect on me. You may read this and not understand what I mean or what I felt during the commercial but I can tell you that in this short amount of time I have already begun love life even more. I hope that some of you can come to realize this feeling and for those of you who do, I'm glad.

Why am I writing this out and placing it up for everyone to see? Maybe its because I want to have it written down somewhere so I never forget about it and maybe its because I want others to know about this and hopefully come to appreciate life to its fullest. Nothing lasts forever, so why not enjoy it now and not regret it when its gone? Now I'm not the best writer in the world and I can't use large words to depict what I feel, so I have found it hard to put all of my feelings into words but I hope that some of them at the very least have reached you in this crude note. I think it should be noted that I am not writing this to preach to you about God and my beliefs but rather how large of an effect this had on me. This just felt like the right thing to do at the time.